Happy New Year!

2009 is coming! Happy New Year to all!

gathering photos

met my old friends recently. A few of them cannot turn up, but it is good to see the rest. Went to the Holland Village 211 roof terrace cafe.
exchange some updates and finally my best friend has decided to settle down next year end. Another friend will be getting married next year also. Quite alot of good news. Heard some not so good news also, but I guess this kind of thing is quite common nowadays. It is really not easy for a marriage to work out well.

Post some pictures of my good friends.

Finally.....a gathering

Finally...will be having a gathering with friends this friday night.I have not seen my group of close friends for like 2 years??? Have not been to a gathering for that long. But I know we have build up a strong foundation since sec/Jc times and even if we had not met for a few years, the bond will still be that strong. Maybe that is the difference between man and woman. My hubby met his friends once a week for supper/dinner. Almost every week he will have something on. But for me, I meet my friends like once a year?? or twice a year??

Once a woman is married, the focus will shift to kids and family. If my kids are sick, or if I am not well. Even if there is a once in a 100 years special event, I will not go also. The 1st place in my heart will always be my kids. And I know I have to be well, then I can take good care of them. I guess for me to really do what I want to do without having to "think", will be when my kids are big enough to look after themselves. Then I can have my own way of doing things, for the next 20 years, I will put my kids the top piority 1st.

the skill of using one chopstick

My big girl trying to eat la mian by using one chopstick instead of one pair of chopsticks. I think she find it easier to eat by using one chopstick.

The miracle weed or coincidence?

My small girl has been very cranky since the 1st month. And we had a hard time, esp when she wants to sleep. She will cry for quite a long time b4 settled down to sleep. Very tiring esp for my mum who is taking care of her almost everyday.have been enduring for abt 8 months, and one day my mum suddenly thought of a certain kind of weed.( belief passed down from long time ago, maybe from some old folks)
Last time when my mum babysit my cranky and itchy fingers cousin, she also use the weed to "deal" with him.....

My father went dun know some ulu place to pluck the weeds. Its actually not too uncommon, it grows on the fences and certain places where they can have support, as they are those crawling kind of weeds. Last time my father used to pluck near the Jurong East/west canel, but now the place has got limited weeds.

My mum boiled the weeds, and used the water to bathe my small girl. Put some fresh weeds in her pillow and in the room.

Actually the weed has got a very strong smell which smells like "chicken shit", in hokkien the weed is called " kuei sai tin" means "chicken shit weed".

I try to find the weed somewhere over the past weekend, and to confirm my findings, I just need to smell the leaves of the weed and if it smells like chicken shit, then I got the right one....haha....can't believe I'm doing this kind of thing.

There was once my hubby ask me if my big girl has poo poo, like got shit smell. And I smell my girl, theres no shit smell, then I realised the "power" of the "chcken shit weed" which I stuff inside my big girl's pillow..haha... The whole room got a funni smell. But it really doesn't smell that bad.

whether its the power of the "chicken shit weed" or its just coincidence, I dun care so much. The fact is, my small girl in the same week where the weed is used, has stopped being cranky b4 sleep time and can really sleep better.

personally, I felt that if its the power of the weed, then there should be some scientific reason behind the weed. Maybe the smell from the weed is soothing? has some calming effect? just like some plants like lavender, they have a stress reliefing effect, so I supposed the weed also work in the same way? Or can it be just coincidence? hmm..........

Now my father over the weekend will go and find the weed and pluck like supply for 2 weeks. Sometimes I happened to see the weed, I will also pluck some back. Just plucking the weeds make me feels like I'm back to my kampong days....but then I'm now so paraniod about insects/spiders on the weed and I know I'm not the same old kampong girl already. And if I dun say, I dun think anyone whould have guessed I once lived in kampong.

my small girl at 8 months plus

my small girl at 8 months plus has 2 teeth and can sit up and crawl also. very cheeky, now always try to find things to open esp. drawers, she will crawl over and pull. She seldom smile. Always stare at people. Look very fierce. I have spent some good time with her for the past 2 weeks. Took her to Jurong Point for a few times. She enjoy going out to "gai gai", once mentioned the word "gai gai", she will start to wave her hands like saying bye bye.

小女人和大女人

每一个女人都有“大女人”和“小女人”的时候。
我觉得在工作方面，自己是个大女人。因为受不了工作效率太差的人，因为觉得自己做得到别人也应该做得到。在工作方面，我是不拘小节的。给人的感觉应该是比较豪爽的类型。

但是在家庭方面，在面对家庭琐事的时候，自己又像个小女人。有很多事情我会放在心上，像个典型的小女人，在夜深人静时，在失眠的时候，开始斤斤计较过去的事情。

我觉得只有自己的母亲了解自己的女儿。做了母亲以后，我才开始真正懂得疼惜母亲。我的母亲那么操劳，可以安享晚年却帮我照顾女儿。一天24小时，尤其现在，我大女儿生病的时候，她帮我带小女儿，整整2个星期没有放一天假。我好心疼母亲。我的母亲很能吃苦，可是我不希望她那么辛苦。她不会因为辛苦就动不动说“我没办法，你自己照顾”。她不会为了让自己轻松，而拒绝帮忙。

我也不希望那么快就让大女儿到托儿所去。我也想让她完全康复后再回去，但是这可能还要等一两个星期。我也有工作，我不是只有一个女儿，我也要让自己的母亲休息以下，我也要陪陪小女儿。大女儿不去托儿所，谁来照顾？是你吗？很多事情光用嘴巴说很容易，我也知道什么对孩子最好，但是做得到吗？我最不喜欢光说不会做得人。

悼念一朵在枪林弹雨中凋零的花

她是一朵那么娇艳的花，不该在枪林弹雨中凋零。
她的勇敢和镇定，所能承受的压力已经超出一般人所能承受。
我连想象当时可能发生的事情都会觉得恐惧。

会考口试曾经出过这样的题目：你认为是恐怖主义可怕还是沙斯可怕？
是恐怖主义吧？
最起码，面对沙斯的时候，亲人在身边，所有的牵挂，放得下和放不下的都在身边。

在生命的最后一刻，没有亲人的陪伴，那么无助，万分恐惧。在全然陌生的环境，毫无心理准备，不知为什么的情况下，就这样牺牲了。多么宝贵的生命却这样无辜地被夺去。

花样的年华，灿烂的生命，在一朵花绽放得最艳丽的时候，却不知为什么凋谢了。
这么壮烈的凋零，让人心疼。
留给我们的是震撼和遗憾。

my home computer kena virus

My home computer kena virus. Wanted to type words in chinese but cannot. And Cannot access my blog also. And anti virus was destroyed by the virus. Seems like a strong one. Now in school doing some work and my girl is beside me. She has not been attending childcare since last monday. Now still recovering. No more fever but cough still there, with phelgm. Need to go for follow up check with PD this coming Thursday. I will let her go childcare centre tomolo, so that I can bring my small girl for injection. Then Thursday I will go Jurong to see PD and friday let her go childcare one more day.

Really hope she can faster get completely well.

helpless

I dun know whats happening to my girl....Her fever came back and the highest hit 39 this evening. I am just back from my PD clinic at Jurong. Took a cab down from Yishun after I phone my Pd regarding the fever. Was told to go down immediately. The whole day today, my girl was telling me she want to sleep. from morning to evening, she seems very tired. Her cough not better. and fever is back.

Felt like crying. I'm so stressed. Whats happening to her? The Pd say if tomolo morning still fever, have to go hospital to do x ray. He is still worried that its fei4 yan2. I will still have to visit the doctor tomolo afternoon. The blood test result will be out.

My girl seems to be very weak. I felt like a useless mother......I am so worried. worried about the big one, and worried about the small one who is so cranky and giving my mum such a hard time to take care. Worried about my hubby who is also sick. worried about my mum who seems to overwork taking care of my small girl and she seems to be falling sick too. Worried about myself, if I fall sick, who is going to look after my 2 kids..... I'm so stressed....

I cannot fall sick.....

doctor visit

my elder girl is still sick. she had high fever 41degree on sunday.was thinking whether to go to hospital sunday nite, then decide to phone my usual PD. Monitor her for 1 nite, the next day, took her to see the PD. Took a cab down to Jurong. She had serious bateria infection. took a blood test as the Pd was scare that her lungs may be infected. I regret not seeing gd doctors but took her to normal GP for so many times, until now she has been coughing more than 1 month. Now end up with more agony and more money spent. The Pd phone in the nite regarding the blood test report and luckily her lungs are ok. Was asked to go for follow up check tuesday. And for these 2 visits, cost me about $500 in total. Have to go for follow up check again this Saturday.

The medical bill for myself and kids for this month come up to $1000. My hubby is also sick. fever. But he still had to go to work as he need to travel to Jakarta this morning. But will be back tonite.

I am still not compeltely well. Still cough at nite. But well enough to take care of my girl. Have not fetch my small girl back for 2 weeks as I did not want the virus to spread to her, without the virus, she is already cranky enough.