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my voice is still like a frog. But I have hop to another doctor. Its the 6th times I have seen western doctor on this cough+flu+loss of voice. Until now still not recovered.

My big girl childcare centre got some kind of stomach flu virus and on and off she will puke. only 1 time she got diarrhoa. There was one nite she puke 3 times. Just changing the bedsheet and washing them enough work for the nite. brought her to see doctor on wednesday nite. She is recovering. But her appetite is so bad that she eat only a few mouth of food and dun wan anymore. I hope she will get better fast fast. I really dun wan to take more leave, need to complete alot of things b4 I take my no pay leave. Have alot of things to do as I can't leave it to a relief teacher to do.sighz........

what wrong with typical woman?

Today I am backstab by another head from another dept which i had to work with.becoz of some no value added work, I felt that I should not do for the sake of doing. for the past years in civil service, I have been doing some no meaning things which pple from "up there" ask me to do. Normally I will juz do quietly, will not kick up a big fuss. But now I am going to take no pay leave, I felt that I should not remain quiet and maybe I should say out the problem. I respect her so I send email to her only, didn;t cc to others. I regret that. I should have CC to P, VP. She went to my head and backstab me...think her EQ also not high man....i didn't "broadcast" to pple, and she go and "broadcast". I think typical women are really petty. Thats why I get along better with guys. I can say whatever I want and I dun have to think whether they will be offended over small small things. I think my school middle management got alot of problems, esp women in middle management. Anything, any problem you pointed out, they will take it personally like you are challenging their authority.

My head is also out to pick on me. Lesson observation is done in july or august. But she sent email and say want me to arrange a lesson observation for her. I am already so sick with a frog voice and she want to have lesson observation. Fine with that. I email back and say she can come anyday, anytime, any class, any lesson. I will not specially prepared a lesson for her to see "fake" teaching. She can just drop by as and when she is free to see my "real" teaching. I think this is more meaningful, but I guess her intention is not to really sincerely come for lesson observation. But I dun care. I am doing my work, she like it or not, its up to her. Why should I bother. My health is in a terrible state. And I am disillusion with civil service. Why can pple just trust pple, must everything really be in black and white?

Please lah, if I really want to challenge anyone's authority, I would have climb up the ladder and be coordinator or subject head or whatever. I dun want to take up any of these roles. That is why I keep cutting my pay, but still I keep getting work. Why must I cut my pay and do extra work. not logical right? It is not pple who are capable should do more work. work and pay should be in porportion.

too bad my P is not in school these 2 days.I will see him again on Thursday when I am back in school. The only thing that makes me feels bad to leave is my classes, my students and my P. Maybe becoz my P is a guy not a woman, thats why I gets along well with him. Typical woman are really petty and difficult to get along with.

I think this year I got alot of "xiao3 ren2" in my life. I need to go see my regular fengshui master again. My hubby also got quite alot of "xiao ren", and worse than mine, his xiao ren is a petty man...haha....a man with the personality of a typical woman....sounds bad....

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During the 1st day of CNY. My hubby family went to Sentosa for a one nite stay at the siloso beach resort. Brought my 2 girls there, luckily my small girl was cooperative that nite, manage to sleep a bit on the bed.
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headache

I have this headache problem after I delivered my 1st kid. the frequency of headache is like once a week. sometimes one side of my temple, sometimes both sides. sometimes mild, sometimes serious. But if I eat panadol, the headache problem can be solved. It has been 2 years I live with this kind of headache and I dun know whats the cause also. Soemtimes when I travel from place to place, from aircon place to non aircon place etc, I get this kind of headache as well. So really dun know whats the cause.

Today I finished marking my sec 3 CA papers at home. Later I am going to have a nap, then will fetch my girl from childcare. And will cook some porriage for her and for myself to eat. Hopefully after this weekend I will get my voice back and also my cough will recover.

tonite I will give the CNY dinner a miss. Too bad, really not fated to go.

MC

I will be on MC tomorrow. Still very sick. Today I tried to teach with my usual hoarse voice that have not recovered. But I got a very bad headache which makes me very giddy and pukish. I have to sit down if not I felt like fainting. luckily I only have 4 periods today and 1 class is doing a test. Already thankful that I do not have to run to toilet to puke.

Had already prepared work for all my classes tomorrow. This time round the low EQ woman has got nothing to pick on me.

I actually seen a chinese doc yest. But today I went to see western doc again, so now I dun know which medicine I should take....continue with chinese med or take western medicine? another round of anti biotics...the 3rd round already...maybe I should not take?

This few weeks of bad sickness has made me realise that there is really nothing more important than health. Work is work, end of the day, sometimes even when you have done your work responsibly, people can still be not satisfied. Even if you work until you are left with one last breathe or you sold your life to work, eventually noone may be grateful to you for what you have contributed.

I need to be real sick to understand alot of things. please dun be a workaholic and put your own health at stake.

my pathetic voice

This morning I have about 60% of my voice. But after one day of teaching, I am left with about 40%. At this rate, I have problem getting back my usual voice. Hopefully, Will be better tomolo.

This friday, will be the school CNY dinner for staff. I didn't go for the teachers' day dinner last yr. I thought this one will be the last event I attend for school, maybe I should go. And maybe bring my big girl along. Take it as a good gathering with my colleuges in school. I most probably will not go back to teach.

Kind of miss my sec 4E3 students. They are so fun loving students. And my favourite class for this year.

what I will be busying with

I just finished marking my 3 classes of compositions and letter writings. And next week, test papers will be coming in. So I will be marking test paper and computing marks for CA1 for next 2 weeks. Then I will go through another round of composition marking. After that, I will set Mid yr paper for my P. Not for my HOD. I do it for my P. He is a nice man, so I thought even though I am leaving in March. I should help by setting the mid yr paper.

My hubby always say I complain and complain and end up will still do things for pple. I guess that is my soft spot. If a person is gd to me 100%, I felt that I should treat the person 200% better. But if the person is bad to me 100%, I will return 200% worse to him/her.....hmm....seems like I also quite petty hor?

So after my leave starts, what will I be doing? Probably will take up driving lessons first. Even though I know I got no sense of direction, but mastering a new skill maybe will be useful to be in the future. Then probably will do some tidying of house and bringing my kids out to play on weekdays where its not so crowded in alot of places.Then I will think of some other ways to get some income for myself..haha..probably teach tuition. And then plan for a good year end holiday with my whole family. Wanted to go tour in a big group as it will be more fun.