gynae visit

This morning I went mount E for my gynae visit. Baby is now 600g at week 24.
Have signed up for the gynae package. 3 times more expensive than my previous gynae, but i decide to go for a try. For this pregnancy, likely to spent a few more thousand in cash as compared to my 1st girl. next appoinment will be on 22nd Jan.

school going to start soon, I have alot of lesson preparation to do, but din really have mood to do. Wanted to wait for tomolo staff meeting, see the classes i will be teaching and my time table and my duties for next year. Hopefully i will be offload.

change of one photo

another result after changing one photo...haha...

something interesting

found this on a friend's blog.
got varying results using different photos.

recovering

currently recovering from flu. Getting very much better except still got some nose block. Spent the 3 days 2 nights in bintan to rest. complete rest. been sleeping like almost the whole 2 days.

Have been putting on weight quite fast for these few weeks. Felt my stomach getting bigger and also feeling more tired easily. Seems like very heavy until I dun felt like walking much.

Now my girl like to point to my belly button and say "meimei". Dun know if she thought that the belly button is meimei or she just anyhow point. I did an experiment. Yesterday i point at my hubby belly button and ask what's that. Then my girl say "yee yee"(dirty)...haha.......lucky she din say "meimei",cannot imagine how she can think that a belly button is her sister.

I've been thinking of bring my girl to the zoo. She never went to zoo before. Now she can recognize some animals, should be a good time to visit the zoo.

This coming friday, my girl will be going for her MMR jab. (measles, mumps, rubella)
hopefully she wun kena any fever. This will most probably be her last injection for the next 1 yr unless i decided to let her go for the chicken pox jab.

flu

I'm sick again.
Since Saturday nite. felt my throat quite sore and it started from the sore throat. Think the weather too hot and maybe also I worry too much these few days.

Just went to see a GP. Got some flu medicine. Tomolo going Bintan, better get medicine 1st, in case become worse over there.

Yesterday went Mount E to see my "new" gynae. I have decided to switch my current gynae to this new gynae in Mount E. I found him very detailed.( come at a high price of coz) Did another very detail scan and his machine is very updated, have 4D scan. Look into bb's brain and all other major parts of body and organs. Found them normal. The cysts in brain still there. But what the new gynae said tally with what my previous gynae said. He felt that the bb is normal, just that happened to have the cysts, probably nothing to do with trisonmy 18. Most trisomy 18 babies are stillborn or not living past a few days/months.rarely have living case of trisomy 18.But there is no yes or no answer unless I do amino. test, which can result in a certain percentage of miscarriage. I dun wan to take the risk, i might lose a perfectly healthy bb, so i just keep my fingers crossed and wait for another 5 months for the answer.

Spent 550 bucks yesterday just for consultation and scan, but felt better after a 2nd opinion. Have decided to change gynae but have yet inform my previous clinic. This time round, i will be giving birth in Mount Alvernia instead of TMC.

Have not been able to sign up for the package yesterday, as mine case still belongs to "high risk", so have to wait another 1 or 2 consultation before i can take the package. Think will have to spent quite alot of money on my 2nd girl. But doesn't matter how much i spent, as long as she is normal and healthy. This is what money cannot buy.

what i want

I think my in laws wanted to have a grandson badly. Yesterday nite my hubby reveal that my xiao mo tou is going to have a sister. My MIL remark was "you4 shi4 yi1 ge4 nu3 de4" (another girl again). She has 3 granddaughters now, but no grandson yet. Next year she will have 4 granddaughters.Then she mentioned that "its time to change flowers" (huan4 hua1), dun know what she meant.

To me, gender is no longer important. What I want is just a healthy baby. My ideal number of children is 3. I have already told my hubby that he have to be prepare to have 3 daughters. My hubby likes daughters, so he doesn't mind. But i guess my in laws will be very disappointed.

My own parent side is ok as my girl is the 1st grandchild in the entire extended family. Only one cousin is married but no kids yet. So my girl got all the attention she want from my family side. She is like a little "xiao3 ba4 wang1", no one fight with her for anything.

As long as my baby is healthy and normal, doesn't matter girl or boy, and i dun mind having a 3rd girl, as long as she is healthy and normal.

going bintan

i will be going bintan with my hubby next weds-fri for a short holiday. And his birthday is on the 29th nov.

i have shift the appointment with mount E gynae to next monday.......need to settle this...if not i got no mood for holiday. Its another day of mental torture.......can't sleep well yesterday nite.

my girl is here with me in Yishun. Fetch her back yesterday nite. This morning she woke up at about 8am and start to create havoc in the house.

I cook porriage for her to eat and bathe her, take her out for walk. Now she is taking her nap in the room, with aircon...nowadays kids have good life...take nap also have aircon. My girl will sweat even in aircon room. The temp have to be low enough for her to feel cool.

I hope next monday will come faster.........

my gloomy days

since yesterday, i cannot sleep well..keep thinking about the cysts........

This morning, I made an appointment with a gynae in Mount E. The appointment is 4dec. Have also schedule for a 2nd detail scan on the same day.

My current gynae is ok, just that I need more reassurance from another doctor's point of view. And i know this gynae in Mount E is very detail, i need a more definite confirmation.

still feeling very uncomfortable about the scanning....I guess I will only feel more secure after the consultation with the 2nd gynae.

my scary detail scan

I went for my detail scannig at TMC today and scare the hell out of me.

My baby ger got these "bilateral choroid plexuses cysts" in her brain.
right side 5.4mm x 3.3mm and left side 10.3mm x 5.6mm.

After the scan, I went to my gynae clinic to wait for my appointment with him at 4.30pm. His operating hours start 4.30pm today. Before that i went library and check up on the cysts and discover something to do with down syndrome.

After seeing my gynae, felt more assured. Before that while i was waiting, I almost want to start crying already.

My gynae say 10 years ago, the cysts are said to be related to down syndrome, but now it is proven to be more related to trisomy 18. But if the baby has trisomy 18, there will be other very obvious signs on other organs and body struture. other than the cysts thing, my baby scan on other parts of body are alright. So he say he can be 99.99percent sure that the cysts will go away by themselves by 28weeks.

with the 99.99percent assurance from him, i felt much better, but still a part of me is very worried. should i go for a second opinion? or should i go for a 2nd scan? I am thinking of going for a 2nd scan at week 24, just to make sure the cysts disappear. There are just too many questions in my mind. Does the disappearing of the cysts means that my baby is normal, will there be any side effects that cannot be detect now becoz of the cysts?

Family times

happy time spent in East Coast.

lastest photo east coast

last saturday, my father has a gathering with colleuges at East Coast. We bring girl girl along.This time her legs are well protected. I bought knee protector for her. But she din really walk much as alot of pple there to carry her.

favourite pose

My girl has a favourite way of posing infront of camera. This is the look...very cute!

injury at west coast park

My Girl injured herself last Tuesday at west coast park. Now her leg already recovered.She fell down after walking too much...very bad mummy and daddy forced her to walk so much.Her 1st leg injury. She didn't cry but refused to carry on walking.
A few days after that, she still didn't know her leg pain pain, she thought the red marks,bruises were dirty marking on her legs and keep saying "yee yee" (dirty), trying to wipe it off.

recent photos

My girl on the Ikea trolley.

upcoming events

currently i still need to report for school everyday from 8.30am to 12.30pm. Until 13 of Nov 2007, after that no need report to school as i will be going for marking.
14Nov to 23 Nov, i will be marking O level Chinese Lit paper.
24 Nov is Daxiong's Church Wedding.
5,6,11 December, will be having chinese lit lesson with my students in the morning.
9 Dec is my hubby's cousin's wedding dinner.
17 Dec tentatively is N level results release. My form class 4T1 will be getting results. Need to go sch to give out results and also promised the chinese students that I will treatthem for lunch.
27 Dec is staff meeting, 28 dec dept meeting and comittee meeting.

also planning to bring my family to sentosa for one day in december. tentatively 15 Dec.

Then most of the time left will be used for lesson planning for my next year chinese lit class.

baby girl

yesterday i went for my gynae check up. Now ard week 15.
gynae do scanning, say most probably is a baby girl.
So my little xiao mo tou will have a baby sister next year.:)
My hubby likes girls, i actually prefer a boy for 2nd one, coz i like variety.
But doesn't matter, as long as baby healthy, other things are not important.

I will be doing my detail 20 weeks scanning in mid November, another 5 weeks from now.By then can confirm alot of things, and make sure the baby is healthy.:)

I have not seen my girl for 2 days. Today going back jurong to see her.
My hubby in China for work this week, so have to crawl back yishun tonite myself.

naked baby

my ger is very mischievous. Just before her daddy bathe her, she saw her daddy's laptop and quickly put her itchy fingers on it, imitating her daddy doing work.
She loves to play with laptops.

more photos

So many froggies at the Jurong Frog Farm. I dun think my ger know what are frogs. When you ask her if she want to play with the frog/goat/other animals, she will always say "yao", she wants to play with anything.

photos

recently, brought my ger to some farm visits. 2 weeks ago went to Hay Dairies goat farm.....last time brought my red cross there also.....
Last week, went the Jurong Frog farm.
next time maybe can go vege farm.
see we got the same family t shirt. Snoopy cute cute....

my sec 3 chinese literature class

my class has done quite badly for chinese literature. Even my best student score only 29/50. She has done well in the part that she can study, but the second part on unknown text, she cannot do well, and did not have time to do all the questions.She miss out a 10 marks question. what a pity.

My 7 students results as follows:
Student A 29/50
Student B 33/50
Student C 37/50
Student D 27/50
Student E 26/50
Student F 18/50
Student G 33/50

Convert the marks to 100%, I have only 1 student with A2 distinction. Quite disappointing. I muz think of ways to help them score better. For the unseen text portion, all do the novel question, nobody attempt to do the poem, which i find quite disappointed also. As I like poems more than other literature forms.
Attach my literature paper here. Some of you may want to try the poem?haha......


C组：现当代文学作品选读（选答一题，占25分）

1 试写出《行人道上的镜子》在写作方面的特色。（25分）


2 《苹果核》的主题是什么？这篇小说在人物塑造方面有什么特点？
（25分）



D组：课外文学篇章赏析（选答一题，占25分）

1 阅读下面这首诗，然后回答问题。

花环 何其芳
放在一个小坟上

开落在幽谷里的花最香，
无人记忆的朝露最有光，
我说你是幸福的，小玲玲，
没有照过影子的小溪最清亮。

你梦过绿藤缘进你的窗里，
金色的小花坠落到你的发上。
你为檐雨说出的故事感动，
你爱寂寞，寂寞的星光。

你有珍珠似的少女的泪，
常流着没有名字的伤悲。
你有美丽得使你忧愁的日子，
你有更美丽的夭亡。


(a)为什么诗人会说少女的夭亡是美丽的？(6分)
(b)试分析诗中少女的性格。（8分）
(c)这首诗运用的意象有什么特别之处？（6分）这首诗还有什么其它的艺术特色？（5分）





2 阅读以下这篇小说，然后回答问题。
　　　　
乌节一角 黄孟文

　　 珍妮从先得坊购物出来，满怀高兴，牵着小女儿的手，走向隔邻的露天茶座，找了一张空桌子，坐下歇息。
　　她叫了一杯冰冻的柠檬茶，另外叫了一杯巧克力冰淇淋给女儿，还叫了鸡肉三文治。
　　女儿的眼睛忽然望着隔邻桌下，拍起手来。“小狗，妈咪，你看，小狗。”
　　珍妮顺眼望去。果然，那儿躺着一只狐狸狗。
　　“哇，真漂亮！”珍妮赞声不绝。
　　她和女儿都站起来，走过去摸它，一边生硬地吹着口哨，一边口里发出“啧啧啧”的声音，去逗弄它。
　　这只小狗全身白绒绒，发出艳丽的亮光。眼睛圆圆的，黑中带一些红色，有点儿像小白兔哩！
　　“咦，怎么它是绑着的？谁将它用铁链绑在椅脚上？还给阳光晒到？”
　　珍妮怒冲冲地张目四望，想要寻出谁是小狗的主人。
　　刚好茶座老板娘在场，她向珍妮解释说是一位熟顾客的。她到附近购物去了，托她们照顾一下。
　　“她还答应给我们十块钱哩！”一个年轻侍者得意洋洋地说，好像很为这笔额外的收入而踌躇满志。“乌节地带的人最慷慨！”她加一句，露出一排参差不齐的牙齿。
　　“哎呀，真是罪孽，怎么可以把它绑起来呢？”
　　“狗也像人一样，是会感到不舒服的呀！——Sayang Sayang……”1言下不胜怜惜，不断抚摸小狗的头，双眼显露母爱的光辉。
　　她还叫侍者把那支立着的大阳伞移过去一点，免得小狗给太阳晒到。
　　小女儿吵着妈咪多叫了一碟鸡肉三文治，拿了一块过去喂小狗。
　　小狗嗅了一下，没精打采地把头伏回地上，好像一点食欲都没有。
　　“哎呀，我忘了，那位顾客说它只吃纽西兰的新鲜牛肉，不爱吃鸡肉的。”老板娘忽然想起。
　　小女儿挖了一小汤匙的冰淇淋给它吃，它连望都不望一眼，闭起眼睛养神。
　　“你应该告诉你的顾客，”珍妮对老板娘说。“把小动物这样绑在椅脚，让它睡在硬硬的地砖上，又晒到阳光，这是不准许的——我是防止虐待动物协会的理事。”
　　“是的，是的，我会转告她。”老板娘有点肃然起敬的样子。
　　这时，一个印度小女孩带着一个小男孩走过来，以右手轻碰额头，作行礼状，她嗫嚅着说：
　　“太太，这碟剩下的面包给我好吗？我的妈妈生病了，我和弟弟肚子好饿。”
　　“你们怎么可以讨食呢？”珍妮满脸不高兴。“你知道新加坡早就禁止乞丐了吗？”
　　“我……我……没办法，妈妈不能工作。”
　　“她的妈妈是这一带的扫地工人，很久没有看到她了。”老板娘代为解释。
　　“不可以，”珍妮坚持。“要讨食也不要跑到乌节地带来呀，给游客看见，不是把新加坡人的脸都丢光？去，去，走开，这么脏！”
　　小女儿忽然走到妈妈身边，惊恐万分：“妈咪，他们有爱滋病吗？”她想起爸妈的话，想起他们常叫她小心，在外头不要乱摸脏物，不要乱碰陌生人，恐怕染上最可怕的爱滋病。
　　“走开，走开，赶快走开，我的女儿害怕了。你再不走，我叫警察来抓你。”珍妮杏眼圆睁，猛拍桌子。
　　印度女孩满眼失望，怯生生地走开了，弟弟跟在后头，双眼闪着泪光。
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

注：1马来语，可怜爱惜之意。
　　
(a) 小说中的珍妮是个怎样的人？试分析珍妮的人物形象。（8分）
(b) 试概括这篇小说的主题思想。（7分）
(c) 作者如何运用对比手法表现主题？试详细说明。（10分）

芝麻绿豆

改完了中三快捷的试卷一。其中一个作文题目是关于两家邻居为了芝麻绿豆的小事吵架。描写吵架情形。改到一些令人啼笑皆非的吵架情形。原来还有学生不明白“芝麻绿豆”的小事的意思。他们觉得“芝麻绿豆的小事”真的和“芝麻绿豆”有关。

有个学生说两家人为了买一包“芝麻绿豆”吵架，因为一个要煮“芝麻绿豆汤”给家婆喝，另一个要煮给孩子喝。

我吃过芝麻糊也喝过绿豆汤，但是从没喝过什么“芝麻绿豆汤”，你们有谁喝过？究竟是什么味道？

另一个学生写一个邻居为了种“芝麻绿豆”而和另一个邻居吵架。因为对方觉得他种的“芝麻绿豆”长成小树后会生很多蚂蚁和昆虫。但这个种“芝麻绿豆”树的邻居却觉得他种的“芝麻绿豆”发出香味。

你们觉得这些“芝麻绿豆”事件如何？？

巫启贤演唱会

星期六晚上，去看了巫启贤演唱会。
去看演唱会和新谣有关，但在众多新谣歌手中，他并不是我最喜欢的。
那场演唱会虽然没有太多新谣，但却是一个难得的回味过去的聚会。
喜欢那场演唱会的人情味。巫启贤究竟是怎样的一个人？

以前对他总没什么好感，因为负面新闻太多。
但是听了演唱会之后，觉得他这个人还蛮真的。
也许是过去误信了不正确的报道，我也希望是这样。
演唱会像一个让他抒发情感，表达感激之情的途径。
他有太多的人要感谢，我很欣赏他这样当众表达情感的方式。
看起来似乎是很重情重义之人。

有亲情、友情、爱情。。。。。。是一场很温馨的演唱会，是个很温馨的聚会。
不说新谣，他的其它歌曲有几首是我很喜欢的，像以下这首闽南语歌曲《叫阮的名》。


《叫阮的名》
作词：何启弘 作曲：巫启贤 编曲：吴庆隆

谁在叫阮的名 一句比一句痛 亲像在问阮甘会惊寒
不需要别人来讲 阮心内嘛知影 是你的声 是你的声

谁住在阮的梦 一住就一世人 尚惊日头会将咱拆散
虽然离开那呢远 阮犹原会知影 是你的影 是你的影

叫阮的名 阮用一生斟酌听 当初细汉未赴乎你了解 你是阮的生命
叫阮的名 阮需要你来作伴 人生的路途阮爱你牵阮走


还有这首《思念谁》也是我很喜欢的。

《思念谁》

你知不知道
思念一个人的滋味
就像喝一杯冰冷的水
然后用很长很长的时间
一颗一颗流成热泪

你知不知道寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因为思念谁
你知不知道痛苦的滋味
痛苦是因为想忘记谁

你知不知道
忘记一个人的滋味就像欣赏一种残酷的美
然后用很小很小的声音告诉自己坚强面对
你知不知道你知不知道你知不知道寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因为思念谁

updates

Now i'm busy doing marking as the school end of year exam has started and my papers came in already. Marking sec 3 express paper 1 and sec 2 express paper 2. I start with the easier one first--paper 2. Still have not finish the paper 2, hope by tonite, i will be able to clear quite a bit and maybe by tomolo can finish paper 2, then friday i can start on paper 1, and the whole of next week to mark paper 1 as well.

Have not been teaching my chinese Literature afternoon lessons for abt 3 weeks already, as i got quite bad 'evening sickness'. Feeling very tired and nauseous in the afternoon. I supposed a few more weeks later i will be able to teach in the afternoon again. If nothing goes wrong, I will be giving my little monster a sibling next year April. Now still dunno boy or girl, but doesn't really matter as long as healthy can already:)
But this time round, i experience more jialat 'evening sickness'. since week 7, have been puking almost everyday. Now is week 12, just 3 months only, the sickness getting better and i dun puke so often, though i just had my puking session yesterday nite. Hopefully the sickness will goes off soon, and i will regain my energy level.

how is everyone? Sometimes i can read the tag box, but most of the time, the box is not visible to me. Even though i re install the box, but still dun function well.

sometimes i wonder how are things in JWSS? Is life there getting better? There are certain things i miss in JWSS...........

upset over shoes

my ger is upset over wearing shoes on her bday celebration. She doesn't like them.
But NOW she likes them already. Now whenever she go out to walk walk, she will wear her shoes. Not she wear herself, we wear for her lah, coz she dunno how to wear the shoes herself yet:) But she likes them already.

more pictures.

the bday cake

my little monster's pictures

long time never post my ger pictures.here are some recent ones.
taken on 11 August, we celebrate little monster's 1st birthday.:)

memories

recently my guides won the 1st prize in dance for their north division campfire. I am very happy for them, its the only competition we win in this 2 years. I felt so bad the guides got only a bronze award this year. ( from Gold to bronze)I really did not do enough last year as I just joined the school and was pregnant then. This year I hope i have done enough for them to get a silver award next year March. I hope to help them get Gold, but the criteria is getting more difficult each year.

really hope before i take up part-time teaching scheme in next year july, the guides can get a good award in next year March. Have been thinking about this part time teaching scheme as I want more time for my family. other than more time, hope to reduce doing admin work, and concentrate more on lesson planning and teaching.

will still be teaching my chinese lit next year. And it will be sec 4 class. And will maybe teach higher chinese and another graduating class. In terms of teaching load, even if take part time teaching, it will not be reduce. But i guess teaching will be more fufiling? but at a pay cut.

currently trying to plan out a heritage trail for my guides, thinking of bring them to city hall area this coming school holidays. Have went down and took alot of photos. will plan something like a treasure hunt. They will be able to get their heritage badge and local history badge. reminds me of the times when in red cross. I miss those days. I remember the various trails that were carried out during red cross camps. And I always put on sun block when go out of the red cross campsite, and cindy, sylvia always make funny remarks on my behavior. Seems like all those memories were still so fresh, but that was years ago.

I wanted to update something here, but i guess i will do it in my next entry.:)

好久好久

好久好久没有用中文留言。
好久好久没有和好朋友见面。
好久好久没有朋友们的最新消息。

大家都还好吗？
我的世界里似乎只有我的小魔头，
忽略了许许多多的朋友。

我忘了佳佳的生日，
也忘了更多朋友的生日。

我的小魔头刚过一岁生日。
虽然没有大事庆祝，
但也算有个温馨的生日。

小魔头就快能够放开手走路了。
在电话的另一端听到我的声音，
小魔头认得是妈妈的声音，
小魔头会叫妈妈。

听到小魔头叫妈妈，
很多原本重要的东西就变得不再重要。

an unlucky year

tuesday i was on child sick. my ger was having high fever up to 40 degree. after seeing a GP, not much use. I bring her see PD. the doc say maybe its "fake measles
", he say nowdays children have injection so dun have real measles. But my ger schedule for the measles injection is in dec leh......that means can be real measles also mah??anyway, my ger after 3 days of fever, yest and today, she got quite alot of red spots on her body...so its really measles.

my grandmum pass away on tuesday nite at 10pm. I was still in jurong then as was on child sick leave. was planning to go back school teach on weds, but grandmum passed away. So i phone my HOD and say need 3 days leave. will on go back on monday. Grandmum is 101 years old. she refused to eat any food since sunday, and passed away peacefully like sleeping on tuesday nite. no pain no suffering, considered v gd life already.

i send my girl to my in law house yesterday so that i can go to the funeral. alot of things need to be done there, as my grandmum children not many( 2 passed away, left 4), and grandchildren also not many. great grandchild only got one.that is my girl.

today i am in yishun house taking care of my girl. As she is not feeling well and with measles, she is very easily irritated. After yesterday taking care session by my in laws, last nite they say cannot help to take care anymore as my girl is very difficult, keep crying and very unhappy. Initially still thought of going down to the wake, now cannot liao.

dun know what to do for the next few days, my grandmum funeral will only end on sunday evening. Need someone to look after her as my whole family will be involve in the funeral and my jurong house is the base for the funeral.so my girl cannot go there also.

I guess my hubby really have to take a half day leave on friday to look after my girl, then maybe i will tell my mum he cannot come for the ritual thing on saturday. then he can look after my girl on saturday. sunday will be difficult, my hubby definitely need to be at the funeral as its the sending off.

selfishness

I know of a real life story. A mother wanting to give up her 2 young kids(the youngest is not even 1 yr old) to be together with a married man who has 1 kid. What has the world becoming? She want to have a divorce with her husband, claiming that they are incompatible in many ways, and she could not live together and tolerate him anymore. The husband may be taking her for granted in the past, but if really need to go separate ways because of imcompatibility. That is fine....but what about the kids....shouldn't she take the custody of the kids? I cannot comprehend why a mother doesn't want her kids....... There are pple who try all means to have kids, but they can't. There are pple who love kids so much that they adopt one. And now this mother who has 2 kids, want to forsake the kids just to go after a married man.

If she were my sister, i would give her a few slaps on the face. WTF.
damn angry when i think about the 2 children, the youngest was not even 1 yr old, and her parents are separating.

incompatility is only a reason for marriage if there is no 3rd party. Just divorce and get back to your life, you still have ur kids with you....now she is using her husband weakness and the incompatibility issue to justify her divorce, which i find it is just selfishness. Divorce and kids are 2 separate issue. if really incompatilibilty, you will only divorce the husband, but the kids you will still love them. But now because you fall in love with somebody else, then you want to have YOUR own happiness, you dun wan your kids....it only means selfishness, and your incompatibility reasoning makes no sense.

And what if the another married guy is not serious in the relationship? Maybe he is just fooling around, which i think is highly possible. I dun think his wife know about it. Probably he is lying, saying he is planning to divorce. I think this divorce thing will never happen.

I cannot understand this married woman, what is she thinking. She is not a 20 yr old young gal. Already in mid 30s......what the hell is she doing!
5 years down the road, she is going to regret. That guy that she claim she trusted, would have still been living happily with his wife and kid. And she a divorce woman who forsake her kids, will be hated by her own kids. And worse if she were to get pregnant with that guy who is lying to her, no one will pity her, and i'm 100% sure that guy will run away and leave her to face her own problem.

I have never been so angry b4. something which seems to be happening in tv series has happen in real life. If I know her well enough, i would have give her a few tight slaps and kick her back to reality. She think she is sleeping beauty or what.......she think got prince to rescue her from her so call "boring" life? If really got prince, he would not want a woman who has no heart, who can forsake own children. If you love a person, you accept what the person is, you accept his/her children if she/he have any.

Do you think this person is truly loving you when he only want you, and not your children? If he really love you, he would have let you go and not entering this adultery relationship. You betray ur marriage and he betray his......so what is the point of getting married? If you cannot make up ur mind to spend the rest of your life with a person, dun take the oath......promises are meant to be kept not broken.

I cannot understand.........how can a mother do this to her kids? I know of pple who wanted kids very much, who miscarriage for many times, who try many years, and pple who had still born kids, pple who leave the hospital ward with no baby. whenever i read these real life story i will cry together with these mothers-to-be. They wanted to be mothers so much, but some never had this chance.

After i give birth to my gal, i finally understand the feeling and thoughts of a mother. kids are blessing....i miss my gal alot when i din get to see her. everyday when go to work,i will think of my ger....when i am not doing teaching, when i am back at my desk, i will think of her......at least 5times everyday, she will come into my mind. I will think about what she will be doing at my mum house, is she eating her porriage, is she sleeping, is she playing....I will want to go jurong to visit her, but sometimes i cannot....i have my lessons to prepare, i have my books to mark.

I think family is the most impt foundation. if family is not strong, alot of things will not work out, you canot work efficently. your mind will be thinking about other things all the time. I think next yr, i will take part time teaching, so that i will have more time with my ger. money is just money. i dun mind lesser money and lesser workload. i am not an ambitious person. I dun need to climb watever ladder to go up the top. All i need/want is a life that is happy......and i know this happiness need to work on, not something that will come by itself....

marking done

Today, the O level Mother Tongue June paper marking is completed.
Tomolo I can go school to do some work, then friday i can go and see my ger and fetch her home.
Tues then will send her back Jurong. I have a few days to play with her.
my ger is now coming 10 months. She can now stand when holding on to things, cannot stand on her own yet. She now learned how to clap her hands and trying to learn how to nod her head, but when she nod, her whole body move together with the head movement, look very funni.
Now she is more and more cheeky. She only call "ba ba", refused to call any other pple, not even my mum. She used to call " ba ba", "ma ma" very often and she also know how to call "ah ma", but she just dun wan to call now. Her favourite word is "mum mum"(eat), seems like she is also high metabolism like me, eat and eat, seems to be hungry most of the time and she eat almost anything....apple, pear, papaya, honey dew, cabbage, green vege, potato, pumpkin, cauli flower, fish, porriage, rice, biscuit, bread, egg etc.
Now waiting for her to learn how to stand on her own and hopefully when she turn 1 year old she can walk.

I have bought her 2 swim suits, but still no opportunity to bring her swimming.( even though i can't swim, but introduce her to water/swimming early will be good, scare next time when she older, she will be scare of water, then difficult to get her learn)

I hope this weekend can bring her to swim.

updates

currently I'm marking the june o level papers at tiong bahru. officially, my duty will end next friday...still a long way to go.

For this 2 weeks, will be seeing Ms Chua and Mdm Lim everyday and eat lunch together.

This June holiday is very short. After marking, left one week, but 2 days on course and 1 day staff meeting. I'm left with about 2 days to do lesson preparation. No time to set CA papers. Sighz........

Thought of preparing more stuff for my Literature class, seems like no time also....

video

my ger video, taken a few months back.

thinking too much

my cough is getting better. But its still there.
Have been thinking about some things recently, and causing me some stress.
Maybe I'm just thinking too much. Things should turn out to be better I hope.

maybe becoz I am very rational and highly disciplined, thats why I cannot understand pple who can forsake family/kids etc for their own freedom/enjoyment/life.

Though its not my problem, but just thinking about it had already build up my stress level.Alot of things in life is about commitment, if one is not ready for commitments, then should not get involved. How can there be pple with no sense of responsibilty?

Just thinking about these 'non of my business' problems, makes me sad and stress.

UTF8

by the way, if the chinese texts cannot be seen, must go to "view", then "encoding", then "UTF8".

in case some of u forgot how to do it:)

i am sick

sighz.........I am actually on MC today, but today its my school sports day, if take MC today, very lugi, only half day. So i force myself to go to the yishun stadium.

I think for this year I have taken 4 days MC already. 3 days for my wisdom tooth surgery and another one on the just past monday. i hope i will not become "MC queen" for the year.

My cough dun seem to get better even though I have seen 2 doctors. The medicine is strong enough I think, feel very light and giddy after taking them. weekend is coming, I am very scare that I will pass the virus to my gal. what to do?

Today is half day for my school again. But evening time need to go back for meet the parents sessions. Its not very fair for mother tongue teachers right? We teach all levels, so end up got to go for sec1 to sec4 meet the parents sessions..........and very waste time coz sometimes only a few parents want to see us, sometimes none. So sit there waste time rite? I think for tomolo evening i will check my sec 2 class got how many parents coming, I got only 16 students for sec 2. So if those parents come and left, maybe I can knock off early??( In JWSS of coz no such thing as knock off early, but here different mah, if no business wait for what)

This sat will bring my gal for the 9mth health checkup. Dun know now she got 7kg or not? The last time she only 6.3kg. consider very small size for a 9 mth old baby.
After the morning checkup, I will need to go Guide house for my annual girl guide meeting. Hopefully that will not take long. Think have to wear full uniform, where got the time?! now i think uniforms are nuisance!

sunday planning to go chinese resturant for a belated mother day lunch with my family. But if I still not feeling too well by then, perhaps I will postpone again.

feeling sick and tired recently.........

some funni compo sentences

这些句子都是今年年中考试试卷一的“佳句”。你们看，我现在的学生和两年前的你们相比，是不是“青出于蓝”？

1 或许她有点短，很难看到她。
（她又不是铅笔，怎么能用短？？）

2 她看见我和妈妈，站在那里不感动。
（如果只要站着就能“感动”别人，那个人才真的有问题！）

3 我把油倒在车上，一把火把车烤了。
（这个学生是不是想BBQ想疯了？？）

4 我要去了，再见。
（听起来多不吉利，去哪里？？用“停笔”，不就行了？〕

5 我问他是否有抽烟，他否认他没有抽烟。
（他到底有没有抽烟？不要假厉害，句子不是越长越好。“否认”加上“没有”，意思全变了！）

6 他被关进赶化院。
（我们当然希望进入“感化院”的青年能够“赶快”改过自新，但也不用这么“赶”对吗？）

7 谈完心事过后，我真的是感到轻飘多了！
（原来谈心事和服食“爱它死”的感觉是一样的。）

8 我希望能给他们过一个平静的后半身。
（那“上半身”呢？“生”和“身”怎么能乱用？）

9 如果我考得好，我以后可以找到一份好工作，可以赚钱养我的父母到长生不老。
（我能理解你的孝心，但是有钱也不能把父母养到“长生不老”！！）

10 我、妹妹和弟弟的双脚马上跑到厕所。
（只有你们的“脚”到厕所，那“身体”又到哪儿去了？原来你们的脚是可以和身体其他部位分开行动的！）

11 几个月后，我们就开始交网了。
（莫非你们是蜘蛛，不然哪有网可交？〕

12 过后，我们就去附近的草原踢球。
（我真怀疑这个学生是生活在新加坡吗？我们这里随处都有草原吗？那应该也有牛羊吧？那么好的草原竟然用来踢球，真是糟蹋了大自然！）


读完之后有何感想？

farewell to my auntie

My aunt left...after about 1.5 week of staying in the ICU.
Left on wednesday nite at 9pm.
The doctor had a conference with my relatives and they decide to remove the equipment that was helping my aunt to breathe.
True enough, without the equipment, she could not breathe on her own, and within 10 minutes, she was gone....

Yesterday after school, I went to her wake at her Jurong west void deck. Today after school, I will go again.Then sat and sunday will spend more time there. Sunday is also mother's day, and its also the last day of the wake.

My gal is at my in law house for these 2 days, as my parents need to help out with the funeral stuffs.

I'm feeling quite sick these few days.Got a very bad cough and losing my voice. I remember there was once in JWSS, I totally lose my voice, and have to write on the white board the work I need u all to do.......

lucky now examz are over, so dun really have much teaching to do.

I marked my literature paper yesterday. I have 7 students only. ( 6 china and 1 malyasian students) And 5 of them failed the paper. Only the malaysian and 1 china student passed the paper. Its not a very difficult paper, I think they did not make a good effort to memorize the text.It very similar to history, if u dun memorize the notes, how to write essay. Having good language foundation is not good enough, there is no content in the essays.

exams exams

My school is having exams now. And I have alot of marking to do...already finish 5 classes of paper 2 and 2 classes of paper 1. Now left 5 classes of paper 1, which means 88 letter writing and 88 compositions to mark.

come across alot of funni sentences. And there's one "genius", who do not know what is composition, sec 1 obviously. And there are 4 qns to choose from. He wrote each qn as one paragraph in his compo. And of coz I do not know which qn he is actually writing. My 4 years of teaching, this is the 1st time i have seen this kind of compo.

I still have literature paper coming on thursday to mark. Have to finish marking the 88 letter writing and 88 compo by tomolo nite.....lets see how much i can finish tonite.


remember 2 years ago i posted some of the funni sentences from compo on blog? I will post again when i am free, then u all can have a good laugh:)

updates

my 3rd auntie is still in hospital. Still not conscious. condition still dun look good. I guess its a waiting stage. Even if she regain conscious, she will be a vegetable. Her brain is damaged.For the people around her, they will definately hope that she can regain conscious. But to regain conscious and become a vegetable, is that a better option? I dun think so. Will that be a comfort for the people around her? Is alive and being a vegetable better than to just go?

Will there be a miracle?

gal gal studio photo

a bad year

This year is not a good year.....seems like alot of things happening.
start with my ger fall sick, my toothache and wisdom tooth surgery, my mum chicken pox....
recently my hubby sprain his ankle. haven't recover yet.

yesterday my 3rd auntie had a fall in her house. That was 2am in the morning. A very serious fall, she fall backward, and her head hit the floor, was operated on the brain to remove blood clot, but since the fall until now still in coma. Yest went to see her in NUH, she is in the ICU. felt like crying when i saw her lying on the bed with a swelling head.
Condition very critical. any good/bad news will be known within this 3 to 7 days.
my cousin appear to be strong, but i know his heart is breaking.
lets pray that she will be regain conscious and will be ok.
I was so paraniod with my HP today. Afraid that the ringing come with bad news.

About 2 years ago, when I was still in JWSS, one afternoon i receive my brother's call, and know the news of my 1st auntie sudden passed away. She was bitten by mosquito, and died from dengue fever. That was very sudden news, everything happened within a few hours, she could not be saved as she seek medical help too late.

i dread attending funerals of loved ones, but i know that is part and parcel of life. everyone will have their turn to go.............but why must there be so much suffering before one goes......

my auntie is not very old, she still have a long way to go.....she still have not seen my cousin setting up family in future, she still have not have any grandchildren yet.

pray for her to recover.........please pray for her to recover..........

personality test again

found this test on a friend's blog.

You Are Grape

You are bold and a true individual. You are very different and very okay with that. People know you as a straight shooter. You're very honest, even when the truth hurts. You are also very grounded and practical. No one is going to sneak anything by you. People enjoy your fresh approach to life. And it's this honesty that makes you a very innovative person.

What Color Purple Are You?

my hubby's personality test

I "requested" my hubby to do this personality test as well. This is the result:

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another personality test

Found this on sandra's blog. Quite interesting also....as usual, very curious, so i went to do this test as well. The result as follows:

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personality test

Found this test on a friend's blog. Quite interesting, so went to do one for myself. This is the result. If anyone interested to do the test also, can go to the link.



My Personality

Neuroticism	47
Extraversion	8
Openness To Experience	3
Agreeableness	34
Conscientiousness	61

You are introverted, reserved, and quiet with a preference for solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends. Stressful and frustrating situations can be upsetting to you, but you are generally able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations. As a practical person you like to think in plain and simple terms. Others describe you as down-to-earth, practical, and conservative. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

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busy week

very busy this week as my mum is down with chicken pox and i have to bring my gal back to my yishun house. My mum in law helping me to look after her during daytime. And i will look after her during nite time.

my mum is 61 years old already. Now then have chicken pox. Very dangerous and xin1 ku3.

next weekend, will be installing aircon for my house. my gal is a sweaty baby, sweat very very easily. And the weather is very hot. Will be installing for 2 rooms and the living room also. One of the room, will be a playroom for my gal. Going to make it very nice. Now thinking of how to decorate the room..........

concert

I will be going for a concert with my hubby this coming saturday.....will my face be swelling or will it be ok? Hopefully I will be in gd condition to go to the concert.
I think most of you will not know the singing group as they don't belong to your generation...........they are from my generation...haha..can see we have generation gap rite??

teddy bear

This is a teddy bear i make for my gal gal. Looks a bit weird rite? I named it the same name as "Mr Bean"'s teddy bear. In chinese, the bear is call Tai4 di2. My gal play with the bear for sometimes, now she is sick of it..she get sick of toys very easily.....one toy can only last 15mins at most..then she will start to throw them everywhere.....

lastest photos

these are taken just last sunday. We went to NTU for a walk. Btw there was one earlier photo with 2 babies. The other baby is my hubby's sister baby. Borned in same month, but she is 2 weeks older than my baby:)

photos

some photos

sick

my gal was sick for the past 1 week. She had fever, the highest temperature hit 40 degree. Bring her to see PD and got some medicine. Paid 110 bucks for it. Being a PD not bad, can earn alot of money.

My gal had recovered. And now its my turn to take MC. I just had a surgery on my right side wisdom tooth. yesterday nite i had a toothache for no reason. And couldn't sleep. Just now i went to see dentist at sengkang ( the clinic used to be at yishun northpoint, shifted to seng kang), did an x ray on the tooth. the wisdom tooth was hitting my molar and worse, it had decay. So have to extract it....but becoz its not growing normally, have to do a surgery.Quite painful.

The dentist tried to save my molar. It had decay a bit also. dun know if my molar can survive for how long more.( my last visit to dentist was in my secondary 4...haha..i think serve me rite for not visiting dentist on a regular basis)But I have phobia for dentist....all becoz of my primary school dentist who do constuction work violently on my teeth....

The surgery on my wisdom tooth cost me $500. That was one tooth. cannot imagine if the rest of my wisdom tooth suddenly give me toothache......it will be a bigger nightmare...........i hope this day will not come....

Btw, I am on 5 days mc starting from tomolo. Sunday i will need to go and remove my stitches. Sunday is Ms Hilda Toh's wedding dinner. I wonder if I will be able to make it?? can't possibly go if my face is swollen......sighz..what to do...........

coming march holidays

march holidays is coming. Its going to be busy for me. From 10 march to 13 march, I will be camping in camp christine. ( Its the basic training course for guiders)

Can don't go??? Sighz.....haha...its ok actually. Its in the west side of singapore. I have requested to go back home every night to see my gal. But the place is very ulu. So have to call cab, if my hubby is not able to fetch me. But in the morning still have to go back camp very early.

When was my last camping session?? seems like i'm getting old. Now very not use to the idea of camping. The last time i camp was with my JWSS red cross, end of the yr 2005. That was just before i had my traditionl wedding dinner in dec05.

Seems like a long time from now.
I miss those Jwss angels from the 1st day i step into the school to teach. I miss my 2N1 class and 2E1 class especially. That was the 1st year i enter JWSS. Now all of you from this batch had graduated and taken your o levels results.
time really flies.........

daxiong and ger ger

post 2 photos taken on 16 feb when i went back to JWSS to visit some teachers.
Mr Lim Teck Siong( daxiong) and my ger ger. my ger ger seems to like him. Maybe he look very much like my brother. So she thought the person carrying her is her uncle(jiu4 jiu4).

flu and more flu

My flu is just recovering and now its my hubby's turn. He is on MC today, down with flu. my gal also having runny nose.....hopefully by end of week all will be well.

Tomolo i have half day, as my school declare tomolo half day becoz of gd o levels results. the reward came a bit slow....but its ok, better than nothing. But the half day is not very half day, since there is still staff meeting. But its a few hours earlier. I can go Jurong to see my gal earlier.hooray!

another photo

some photos

yest i have gone to see doc and get some medicine for my flu. Today feeling very much better...at least my runny nose is settled. Today went for the girl guide thinking day celebration at indoor stadium. my precious saturday is gone.........not that i dun like to go for this event, but really have very limited time.....
I always feel quite bad not very attached to my new students esp. my CCA students.I used to take a camera and go around taking my red cross students pictures, but now I hardly take any pictures of my guides.There's a saying : 曾经沧海难为水, i think this is why i find it so difficult to build up strong bonds with my new students.

my hubby just downloaded some photos from the digital camera, now i post a few on blog. These are taken on the past tuesday when we go sentosa, together with my 3rd uncle family.

down with flu

Sighz.......i'm down with c2pid flu...yesterday morning when i woke up, i already sense something not too right. My throat going sore. This morning when i work up, still got running nose.Its the time of the year i usually get sick. After the nose thingy, next coming up will be 100 days cough as usual. I think most of you will remember, I always cough, and my cough last very long.

Just pray that this time i will not kena the cough. If i really kena very serious flu and cough, i will quarantine myself from my gal.........Sighz.....my poor gal gal:(

testing uploading video

now trying to learn how to upload video.
try out one video on my crying ger ger.

late posting.........

I'm so sorry my little angels that i couldn't go for the footdrill competition the past weekend.
I was attending my guider course when i saw the sms.
I know u all are disappointed with the results, but its a tough fight.
I know everyone in the squad had done your best, that is good enough.
As long as the team spirit is there, there will be one year the team can bring the glory back.
That year will not be too far from now............believe in yourselves, and you will be able to do it!

busy busy life

My life is now so busy until i hardly had time to breathe.
Endless work to do, work that can never be finished.
spent alot of time preparing for lessons end up don't even have time to do marking...sigh....

Seem to be quite fated with 4T. My form class this yr is again 4T...reminds me of JWSS. But here we have 2 form teachers for 4T. Time is spent in phoning students and trying to catch them back to school. I have one student who had suicide tendency. had not come to school for 5 days, and get to know it from her mum. She finally came back today and seems to be feeling quite bad about running away from home....seems like she regret what she had done....BUT then less than half a day, she run away from school without informing anyone.......run away together with another 2 classmates. My goodness, I have 3 students missing from class 3 periods b4 the dismissal bell ring.

spent another few hours trying to call her mum to inform her about it. And was worried sick that what might happened.THEN finally i got her mum, and she said the girl was back quite early and sleeping in the room.........

I don't know what to say......her mum can't do anything about her. I phone her the other time and she say she can't get her girl to come to school. And she say she cannot communicate with her girl.

what a day for me. thousands of things not done.I wonder what will they become if they were in JWSS? The learning environment is heaven here, and they don't seems to appreciate. maybe should have an exchange programme, send them over to hell to have a look, then they will know what is heaven.

my gal learn flipping

it has been a long time since i last blog. my gal recently juz learn how to flip from lying on back to stomach. She is a bit slow. But after she know how to flip, she keep flipping and crying for help after that. And immediately after we flip her back on her back, she start to flip to stomach again, and less than 1 minute, she will cry for help.

my school teaching workload this yr is still ok, except got more admin/paper work to do. Have been preparing powerpoints for lesson these few weeks.

now my gal stay with my mum in jurong, and i only visit her during tues and thurs on weekdays. And bring her back to yishun on saturday morning or friday nite. will tend to miss her when she is not around.

will post more of my ger photos next time...have to go prepare lesson again.....