my small girl at 10 months

My small girl at 10 months can now call a bit of names. She can call mama, baba, yeye. But the first name she called is jiejie. She seems to like her sister alot. She can say "mum mum" when wan to eat and "nei nei" when wan to drink milk. She can say "gai gai" when she wans to go out. And she can wave bye bye and point to her stomach when she eat full.

Now she is at the stage where she wants to hold on to things and stand up.She is more daring than her elder sister as she is not afriad of falling. Her temper is bad. my big girl is scare of meimei. She will "complained" to us that meimei is coming and meimei destroy her things. She will say to herself "meimei lai le, bu yao pa"...hahaha...seems like she will be bullied by my small girl.

NPL

I have made the decision already. By pass my HOD and talk to Principal. He is a reasonable superior and I really enjoy working under him. But the new HOD really sucks.......haha....anyway my no pay leave will starts from 23/3/2009. Will take until year end. Then I will decide what I want. Whether to go back teach or to change school or to continue take no pay leave. Too early to decide now.

I am left with 30% of my pathetic voice. And was on MC on Thursday. And the no EQ & IQ head just implement a "buddy system" on Thursday morning itself, expected me to phone my "buddy" to inform of assignments to be given to students. Hey! I am on MC on that day and I did not attend her bloody meeting so how I am going to know who's my "buddy"? And Its a long weekend after CNY. Wednesday was my freeday, so I wasn't in school for one week. If I know I will be so sick until after 1 plus week also cannot recover, I must be God....haha...And the bloody system implement on the same day, activate in that same second??..haha...one of the vein in her brain must have gone hay wired.

And I heard on friday when I went to school that someone bad mouth me. Say I "irresponsible".....what a joke man. I have alot of close friends in school who came to tell me abt it. They were so shocked also. I was actually also on MC that day. But I decide to go to school to teach with my pathetic 20% frog voice. And I felt so upset that morning after I heard the brainless woman bad talk behind my back. But that afternoon, I suddenly felt like laughing. Its the best joke of the day, and I actually forgot to tell the P about it durig our conversation. I should have tolf him.

A newbie in school who dun even know what kind of person I am, dare to use that word on me. Where on earth got a part time teacher work until school close everyday and mark until 12 midnite and use free day for marking? And I am "irresponsible"...I find it so amusing man. Its a word that I would never ever imagine it to be use on me.

The 2 things that I am always so proud of myself is Integiry and responsibility. Ever since my primary school teacher wrote that in my report book, I made sure I live up to the 2 words. Its really a joke of the day. And she said to to my good friends in schools..haha..........who find her a horrible woman.

my ba zi and her ba zi must have clashed. I am actually on good term with almost all my colleuges in school. But she is one of those that really irks me. Since she like things so superficious, she should do it herself. I am not interested in doing thnigs that look good but have no value. Working under a petty woman is bad. I guess I am those kind more "hao2 shuang3" and I canot stand petty woman as superior.

Too bad, its just a senario of a mismatch. I am not the right GENERAL for the right KING.

a thought

I had this thought. I would like to take a break from teaching in school. I felt so tired and sick. And I'm real sick. I am not getting what I need out of the part time scheme, which makes me felt so "exploited" by pple. I am still leaving at school at 6pm and bringing back all the tonnes of compositions and works to marks. I din get to use the free day constructively, but used it for my marking. So by getting less pay, I am not justified for it.

I seriously think that I need to leave. Maybe to cool down for a while. Considering taking no pay leave first. I need a break. But currently too sick to even discuss with P anything. And also because I am losing my voice again. The last time I totally lost my voice was in 2005. Now my voice problem is here, because I cough too much. And maybe think too much also.

a late goodbye

I am so shocked when I browse thro some of the blogs that I have been missing for quite a while. I din even know she left, she was such a quiet and gentle girl in class. The year I taught the class 2005. That was the year I left JWSS. I love the class, there are so many red cross little angels in the class. Alvina was so quiet in class, she was responsible and committed in red cross tasks. Even though I only taught her for that year, she and the rest of the red cross girls are always on my mind. I know she had some health problem, but she look alright and she carried out her duties like the rest of the girls, it did not come to my mind she would have left us so early. She was so close to the release of O level results. My heart ache when I recall her name...Alvina is the name she was called in red cross. But in chinese class, she was called Tan Wan Ling.

I couldn't sleep last nite, my mind was full of the unexpected news and I am so sorry that I did not send my goodbye to her. I was late.......late by almost 2 weeks. I don't know how her good friends are going to cope with the loss. I read the blogs of so many of them and all the photos brings back alot of memories. My images of them were still stagnant at sec 1. But they have all outgrown the childishness and become pretty ladies.

Why did such a nice girl left so early....there's still so much for her to see, there are still so many dreams to pursue........I find it very hard to accept.
I hope she will be a happy angel in heaven.........a late goodbye to Alvina...

Take care of yourselves........Wan Jing, Veronica, stephanie and valerie......I am sure your good friend wants everyone of you to be happy. And also to help her to live life to fullest and to pursue all the dreams that she is unable to do so.Take Care!

sick again

I have been falling sick so often nowadays. My bad bad cough is back again...sighz....

my workload for the year

Now I am taking the part time teaching scheme with a 2/3 workload. Means I'm getting a pay cut of 1/3, so doing 1/3 less work. I do not have form class and CCA. And I have 1 free day which I do not have to go to school, and its a wednesday. I have check out the calender. There are no public holidays on a wednesday, thus its a very good choice. Initially, I wanted to have the free day on Monday, but after looking at the calender, I decide not to. There are quite a number of public holidays on Mondays and Fridays for 2009.

I will still be doing dept admin work as I will still be in the IT committe and doing all the data stuffs, like keying in marks, preparing result analysis etc. Will still need to help out in dept events, but not the main in charge.

I have 4 classes. 2E, 3E, 4E and 2T

My 1st day of sch, I still ended up leaving school at 6.30pm...sigh...I dun want to be the most "ill-fated" teacher on part time. I have to leave early........I must leave early, so that I felt justified for my pay cut...haha

The 1st post for year 2009

School starts tomolo and I will be back to work.

I dun like the new head in the dept, as she seems unable to judge who is the "bad" person and who are the "good" people in the department. She seems to be taking the wrong sides and I am quite disappointed about it. Just dun feel good. The good people always get bullied. And this very good guy in the dept gets unfairly treated, which makes my blood boils. Why is it that we are always clearing shit and mess for others? They create the mess then they should clear it themselves. And this woman who got no team spirit just want people to help her when she need help, so where is she and what have she done when we need to do things as a team? One rotten egg really spoilt the whole basket of eggs. And I dislike people who got no team spirit.

Not a good way to start the year with.
I should say something good.
hmm...........I hope everyone on my "good friends" list will have a good year, good health, good luck.:)