Wednesday, August 31, 2011

teachers' day

I bought some flowers. Tonight i will wrap the flowers nicely. tomorrow my girls can give to childcare centre teachers. And I make some cards also. big girl write the wording on the cards. Her handwriting improved. last year the wordings not so nice. This year the handwriting neater.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

烦躁

烦躁。

Sunday, August 28, 2011

告别华人七月

今天是华人7月的最后一天。
明天开始就是华人8月了。
新的开始。

0.34

如果知道他能够取得那么多选票,我相信更多人会投给他。
但是大家都以为是打不赢的仗,所以直接投给了反对党的代表。
执政党的战略真的很好。用声东击西,成功移走了医生的选票,形成的“三国鼎立”,分散了医生的选票。
如果当初他们认同医生的参选,就不会派出“偷蛋者”。
派出“偷蛋者”又怕反对者会把票都投给医生,就故意让反对党的代表人物进场。
这样那些极端份子就会自然把票投给反对党的代表人物。
选票分散了,对他们有利。
投给医生的票都是一些较中立的人士,还有医生从医以来累积下来的善因。
如果大家能够更团结些,如果那些废票有一半投给医生,
那他就获胜了。
很遗憾。
但是我也是直接造成遗憾的一份子。
自己真是没远见,连这声东击西的战略都没能看出来。
但是这也不全是坏事,
因为反对党代表人物在这次的参选过程,
曝光率很高,
为5年后的大选铺路。
塞翁失马,焉知非福。
有了前人开路,后来的人会走得更平顺。
所有的政治道路都是这样走出来的,
包括现在的执政党。
0.34 是遗憾的记号,
也是预见未来的记号。
0.34是一个微差,
0.34是人民和理想中的社会的距离。
0.34是时间的标记。
在0.34的将来,我们就会看见这0.34的改变。

Friday, August 26, 2011

选“蛋”

明天就是选“蛋”(TAN)的日子。
要早一点去选“蛋”,迟了会很多人。
该选什么“蛋”,其实什么“蛋”都不是我的最理想的蛋蛋。
但是非得选的话,就选那个蛋吧。
不然就索性什么蛋都不选。
反正我的胆固醇这么高,真的不适合吃蛋。
怎么除了“蛋”之外,就没有别的选择?
如果还有更好的选择,就不会伤脑筋。
该自动放弃选蛋还是就选哪个蛋呢?
明天到了选蛋的地点再做最后决定吧。
但我选不选,应该都没差吧?

plans

Now its end of august already. I think 2 more mths, MOE will be sending me email and asking if I want to go back teaching next year. I will probably extend my npl for another half a year. Maybe next year July, I can try to go back teaching. By then my hubby finished his MBA course. But I will still take halfload. full load is too much for me.

my girls

Today I sent leng and san to childcare. The principal told me some parents asked who is the N1 girl who start off first during last sat sports day. Thats my san san. Some parents noticed that she is very focus and confident when she carried out the tasks.They were quite impressed. She also say the older kids like san san alot. They will ask her to sit on their laps and will keep asking her whether she likes them. And if san san say she likes. Then they will be very happy. There was also once the principal overheard what san san said to another classmate. The girl was in san san class N1, and she cries in the morning when come to school. san san will tell her in chinese saying "come to school, no need to cry." Then the girl replied "yes jiejie."...haha....so funny. san san is like a big boss in school.

My leng leng seems like a "small adult" nowadays. She watch TV shows that we watched and she actually enjoyed watching more than us. Sometimes she is so engrossed that she seems to have entered into the TV already. And when you call her, she cannot hear also. The principal told me that there was one day, leng was eating breakfast when jiarong came. And one of her classmates quickly tell leng that jiarong is here. Leng ignore and contiue to eat. Then the keep repeating that jiarong is here. Then leng got angry and say "OK" very loudly. I think she must have thought the girl is very long winded, keep repeating the same thing.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

throw throw throw

These few days, every night we saw police downstairs. There is a 7th mth celebration thing under our blk, so quite alot of old folks downstairs. Got to know these few days every nignt got people throw things down. Heard that they throw glass bottles down. For 4 days in a row, but nothing was done, or maybe I should say nothing could be done. How to know which floor people throw down? install CCTV or something?
Very dangerous. Can kill someone if someone happened to walk pass at that timing.
I really have an urge to go opposite blk with my video camera and wait for the culprit to throw again tomorrow. But so dark can the video camera capture the act? I hate this kind of inconsiderate and murderous act. Why do we have these kind of people living around us?

going temple

tomorrow I will be going bugis temple again:)

favourite fruit

Currently my san san's favourite fruit is durian. And she loves it so much. She can eat alot. sometimes I will buy one durian back for her. My big girl don't really like it, she will eat a little bit. But san san eats alot. June also like to eat.
Sometimes my father will buy one back for san san too.

好听

《美乐加油》里的歌。
《下一页的我》。

喜欢

喜欢这首歌。
《下一站,幸福》里的歌。

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

tomorrow outing day with june

tomorrow i will be bringing june and mum out.
Maybe go orchard walk walk.
Need to buy some taka vouchers for cousins' house warming.
Hope the weather will be good.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

蚊子

这两天家中有蚊子。
一只神出鬼没的蚊子。
不知道埋伏在哪里,
总是趁我不注意时出来偷袭。
看到时,又打不着。
它飞得太快,又不停留在某处休息。
看到时,打不着。
准备好杀虫剂时,它又不知所踪。
到现在都还没找到它。

天使的诱惑

这几天看这部韩剧。今天看完了。
演员演技精湛,但是到最后我很想打编剧。
这种复仇的故事线看了令人心烦。
太多了,太杂了,太纠结。
更可恶的是,最后竟然不给一个圆满结局。
可怜的男主角,怎么每次他演的戏都是得不到爱情。
《同伊》里是如此,《灿烂的遗产》也是如此。
裴秀彬在这部戏里真的很酷。
眼神超迷人的,很有魅力。
但是还是比较喜欢他在《灿烂的遗产》里的角色。
那种新好男人的温柔形象非常讨好。
下一部,应该看什么才好?

final decision

What triggers me to make this decision. The yesterday WP's problem on using of public places. The role of CC, PA etc, should be promote and enhance social cohesiveness, not to create division among people. But they have failed terribly. THis isue trigger my decision. Using these organizations as a political tool when they should all be politically neutral really sadden me. So 75 percent contribute to my current decision on saturday. Another 25% is due to the ISA issue. THis is nothing new, but it makes me uncomfortable all these while. So my decision suddenly become clear. I was still pondering over 2 choices, now I am left with one. Thanks for enlightening me...haha...

Friday, August 19, 2011

B3

我的三个补习的学生都考到B3。
算是不错了。
虽然我很希望他们的运气更好些,能够捡个A2,
但是这样的成绩已经很好了。
原本都是C6或C5的成绩,有时候还不及格,
在家又都讲英语,能靠B3应该知足了。
2位决定不重考。
另外一位还在犹豫。
其实再考也无妨,只要决定了就不要后悔。
有时候,再考一次,是为了不留遗憾。
不然心里总想着“如果”。如果再考一次,是不是会考得更好?
要除掉“如果”就一定要重来一次。
也只有这个考试可以重来。
人生如果可以重来该多好?
那么多浪费掉的光阴。
如果可以重来多好?
那么多曾经没有做的事。
如果可以重来多好?
那么多不想要的回忆。
如果可以重来多好?

最后一集

今天看了最后一集的《美乐加油》。
觉得结尾部分感觉有点仓促。
好像还有很多没交代。
但是还是能够感受到那大团圆结局。
虽然只有百分之十五的成功率,但是韩以烈还是幸运的。
虽然有点不可思议,但偶像剧本来就应该存在奇迹,
不然已经够悲惨的现实,连看戏都不能得到安慰,不是更悲哀?

又一部戏

现在在看的。
电视正在播映的。
《灿烂的遗产》。
在《同伊》里饰演同伊的“哥哥”的演员,裴秀彬,真的超帅的。
很少称赞演员长得帅。
在《灿烂的遗产》里,他真的特别帅。
很有个性。我觉得远远胜过第一男主角。
戏中的角色也很吸引人。
如果现实生活中也有这样的人物,
那他肯定魅力无法挡。
现在已经看到第18集。
还有7集就看完了。
再看两天应该就能看完。


今天也看了两集的《美乐加油》。
只剩下最后一集了。
不知道明天是不是就能在网络上看到?
希望是个大团圆结局。

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

MV令人讨厌的部分

很多MV喜欢讲话,看到一半,突然里头的男女主角吵架。
听到一半,除了背景音乐,还有嘈杂的人声。
很扫兴。
可能加入这些对白和独白能够增加歌曲的感情,
还有给人更强烈的故事画面。但是有时真的太多了。
这样的歌曲真的太多了。对白除了华语,还有英文的,还有日语的,还有韩语的。
还有一些根本听不懂的。
好像范范的《他没有错》,应该是很好听的。
但是MV真的很长气,有的没的太多。
看不下去。
还有些MV夸张得爆笑。
本来要渲染怎样怎样的一种悲情气氛,
但是看了却觉得可笑。
最近真的看太多MV了。
还有点看不下去的感觉。

leng leng 5th bday part 3





leng leng 5th bday part 2





leng leng 5th bday in school





leng leng 5th bday at ah ma house

Leng Leng's bday celebration, but san san looks like the bday girl...haha...



new president?

who should I choose?
Who will i choose?
I will not choose Mr Tony Tan. He is too PAP. anything also yes, everything also yes.I dun agree all policies are perfect. If need to improve, need to improve. So cannot be a too yes man. I dun doubt his capability. He is the best choice in terms of ability. But I look for something else at this point of time.
I will not choose Tan Kin Lian. Dun feel good. Dun look very honest to me.

I am now left with 2 choices.
I know Dr Tan Cheng Bock. Used to see him when I was sick since primary school days. When I was staying in Jurong, his clinic just at the opposite street, so I always went to him. But ever since I shifted to Yishun, I didnt see him anymore.

As for Mr Tan Jee Say, I dun what kind of person he is, but if I want to make my stand clear, I need to choose him. I am still thinking. But I know I only have 2 choices. Maybe I will just close my eyes and cross.

Anyway, whoever I choose will not make a difference to the final outcome. why? because Mr Tony Tan will still wins the election, whether we like it or not.
This is reality. The hard truth.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

去年的这个时候

去年的这个时候,
大概这个时候。
国庆日前后。
患病的那两个星期。
今天又再想起。
上个星期又被蚊子叮,而且还被叮了9次。
留下了9个“纪念品”。
很害怕是伊蚊,因为如果我再患病一次,
这次会比上次更严重。
上次惨痛的经验还很清晰。
下决心到医院去的那天,
我是拖着多么无力的身躯到诊所看医生。
也不知道是看第几个医生,看第几次医生,
还没说到两句话,我的眼泪就禁不住流下来,
原本都没发烧,医生一量,竟然说是高烧,还怀疑我是脑膜炎,
写了一封信叫我马上去医院。
我的头是疼得像要爆开一样。
比阵痛还难忍受的痛,几秒就抽一次。
吃止痛药又吃不好。
我只好把自己送进医院。
入院的第一通电话,打给老公,叫他准时接孩子们放学。
跟他说,如果他应付不来,就去请帮手,请谁都好,保姆或女佣,随便,
反正我是不行了。
第二通电话打给保险代理,问她我可以住什么等级的病房。
我跟工作人员说A2.
他们却把我送去隔离房间,结果就是A1那样的房间,一个人住。
早知道我就说B或C,
反正也是住隔离房。价钱相差很远。
他们以为我得了什么高度危险传染病,
我也不知道是什么病,
反正感觉快死了,就随他们做什么都好。
那天被推来推去,完全没有时间的概念,
感觉做脑部扫描的时候还是凌晨时间,
医院安静得很可怕。

住院的第三通电话就打给老妈,
跟她说一声,免得她担心。
然后就住了几天医院,没让其他人知道,
因为以为是像SARS那样的传染病,
而且在隔离的房间,我想也不能来探病。
护士进出病房都戴口罩,
那时候真感觉自己是个高度危险的病人。
到最后,受了那么多冤枉罪,
才查出是骨痛热症。
又没骨痛,又没热,谁知道是蚊子惹的祸。
但是现在懂了,
没骨痛,没热,没红斑,也可能是骨痛热症。
住院时没吃东西,没胃口都吃不下,
才几天,我就恢复了生产前的体重,
原来人要这样才能瘦下来。
而且是自然瘦的。
现在回想起来还是觉得很可怕。
这样的事不要再发生了。

你还好吗?

今天突然想起你。
看了你宝贝儿子的部落格,发觉好久都没更新。
去年年底到现在,差几个月就一年了,都没更新。
你在澳洲还好吗?
儿子应该长得很高了吧?
回来走走的时候,记得联络我。
这次和佳卉一起,我们三个吃顿饭。

new bubble tea shop

A new bubble tea shop at northpoint.
Normally, I will drink each a cup. Today I tried out the new one. Not bad.
Its call "sharetea" (歇脚亭).
Quite famous in Taiwan.
I discover the sugar level is more realistic as compare to other brands.
Each a cup, I always say 20%, but then taste sweet also.
This new shop, the minimum is 30%, so I say 30%, the girl look at me and informed me that it will taste rather bland. I say ok.
And turn out less sweet than the 20% sugar of each a cup.
Even the "ocha" brand near chong pang cc taste rather sweet with minimum sugar level.
I cannot imagine if 20% is already that sweet, what about 100%?

Monday, August 15, 2011

美乐加油11

看完了第11集。
感人。
看到第12集的预告。
觉得不解。因为美乐应该会知道韩以烈是在演戏才对。
一个人怎么可能变得那么快。
而且之前这个人的言行应该也透露了一些线索。
怎么她都没觉察?
但是也可能因为之前的背叛,使她心里留下阴影,
所以把两个人的行为都归类为同样一种。
这也是有可能的。
但最后应该会知道真相吧?
我很希望这部戏是大团圆结局。
应该不会让我失望吧?

热度三分钟

大魔头这一点很像我。学什么都是三分钟热度。
上个星期,她说不想上 I can read 的课了。
她说想学芭蕾。
我说好。
因为我觉得我跟她很象,就是什么都只想学一点。
所以就让她上完这学期。
现在正在物色芭蕾学校让她上课。

这些额外课程都只为培养兴趣和让她们接触不同事物。
所以不能太强求。
但是我很希望音乐方面她可以坚持。
最起码掌握好钢琴。
因为我自己很羡慕会弹琴的人。
希望三个女儿将来都会弹琴。
芭蕾接触一点无妨,但是要长久跳下去,我还是有顾虑。
我不想她腿部的肌肉组织那么发达,外八的样子也不好看。
现在还小,跳跳无妨。

美术方面如果她有天份,自然会画得好。
这方面很难栽培。但是可以让她接触不同种类的艺术。
总有一样是她有天份的。

三分钟热度不能全怪她。
也有遗传的因素吧。


最后的醉后

今天看完了最后一集的《醉后决定爱上你》。
结局在预料之中。
但是如果我是林晓如,我应该不会跟宋杰修在一起。
因为他母亲从楼梯上摔下的事,会成为心中永远的疙瘩,没法除去。
不管错在于谁,那一瞬间的迟疑和怀疑都将在心里留下阴影。
如果我是林晓如,我的选择应该是耿烁怀。虽然他的发型真的超讨厌,
但是起码他会是个永远的守护天使。

我觉得这部戏里最经典的两句台词应该是:
“分手的理由是假的,但分手是真的。”

“没有过不去的事情,只有过不去的心情。”

大姐大风范

杉杉的个性就是如此。
刚才她在吃“绿色蛋糕”时,不小心掉了一块。
结果出乎意料,她竟然用脚把蛋糕夹起来。
真的是惊人之举,
害我们笑翻天。

Sunday, August 14, 2011

庆祝生日

今天帮伶庆祝5岁生日。
买了个蛋糕。
可是杉却“心理不平衡”。她说她的生日也是在8月。
今天也是她的生日。
不管是妹妹还是姐姐生日,都是她的生日。
所以唱生日歌时,要唱两次。一次唱给伶,另一次唱给杉。
很霸道的杉,可是真的拿她没办法。
我看未来的日子,
真有的受了。

another recent news

Recently the news on the NTU female graduate ending speech at graduation day with a "we f____king did it". err.... seriously I think no matter how one tries to side with her, the usage of the word in that context is too much. You can use it in gathering with friends etc, But not in formal occasions and graduation day is a formal event. Alot of people, esp western ones, they do use words like that, but they didn't use that in formal occasion. Why? becuase they know when and where and how to use the word. Not like many youngsters today, just use for the sake of using.

some may argue that adding a "ing" will have a different meaning to the original F word. But I don't think so. A negative word, adding "ing" will still be negative. Only positive words addding "ing" will be positive. SO don't try to make the word looks positive. It can never be. And don't try to say that in that mood you have to use that word. Why cannot just say "we did it!" with a proper action, or "we really did it!", your tone of voice and body language will tell people your mood, you don't need to use that bloody word to bring out the mood.

So no point keep defending her. When your EQ is low, it is low. WHen you make a mistake, just apologize and carry on your life. Defending and arguing doesn't help at all. really disappointed with those NTU lecturers who side with her. If she don't learned her lesson now, she is going to use the F word more often in future and create a fool out of herself, maybe a bigger joke next time. If using that word is fine, then why didn't the politicians use it in rallies and elections and maybe NDP? So the word is actually and really not fine lor.......

only positive words adding "ing" sounds nice and creative. like the mayday song 恋爱ing. it gives a "on going" feel. But negative ones adding "ing" makes the word worse.

curry

I find it quite ridiculous. Recently there is this news on a singaporean Indian family being ask by govt mediator to cook curry only when their new PRC neighbour is not at home. why? becuase the neighbour cannot stand the smell of curry.

So does that means that very soon we will be asked not to eat durian and maybe not to sell durian in singapore?If they cannot adapt to the multi culture and multi religion environment of singapore, they should settle somewhere else.

If i were the indian family, I will cook more curry, everyday cook. cook until they go somewhere else. Cook curry got against the law meh....I like to eat, i cook eveyday cannot ah....

Thursday, August 11, 2011

june at coming 14mths

Little June coming 14mths, but still show no interest in walking. She only hold on to things and stand. didn't try to move her steps. And she is not too interested in talking as well. Only willing to call "jiu jiu" and "jie jie".

But she is always happy. smiling most of the time.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

最近

最近,我在重温一些过去错过的台湾综艺节目。
一直很喜欢看《康熙来了》,但是以前错过很多集。
现在补看。

还没有找到我想看的下一部偶像剧。
所以现在每个星期就只看《美乐加油》,
还有《醉后决定爱上你》。

agar agar second try

This morning I tried out the fresh orange juice agar agar again.
But didn't manage to buy blueberries and other berries. So I used grapefruit instead.
without adding any sugar.Taste quite sweet.Just that the grapefruit is sour, so depends on individual preference, those who don't like sour taste will not like it.

Next time I will try out other fruit juice. And with other bits of fruits inside the agar agar.

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

happy national day!

Singapore's 46th birthday.
Happy National Day!

Monday, August 08, 2011

选择上当

刚才在房里看《美乐加油》,突然看到木门反射出影子。
晃动着,感觉蛮诡异的。
直觉告诉我外面一定有什么。
接着,听见敲门声。
走出去的时候,心里在想是不是推销员还是邮差。
出现眼前的是一位老婆婆。
年纪80左右吧。
手上没拿着东西,应该不是卖东西的。
她说话速度很慢,说的是华语。
她说跌倒至今没有工作,没钱。
希望我能给她两块钱。
我当然知道那不是真的,之前也听过这样的故事好几回了。
但是二话不说,马上给了她两元。
为什么?
因为她年龄真的大了。
因为两元也不是很大的数目。如果她开口报个天价,我可能就不给了。
因为不想早上就被人骂,会倒霉一整天。
她走时还好心提醒,叫我不要把我的包包放在客厅地上,
很容易被人偷走钱包。
还算是个好心的骗子。

感人

刚看完《美乐加油》第10集。
很感人的一集。

醉后17

刚看了《醉后决定爱上你》第17集。
这一集好看。
好像还有一集就结束了。
好快。

Monday

Today my girls' childcare centre celebrate national day.
My tuition for today is in the afternoon.
Tomorrow i will be at jurong again. Weds also. The centre closed on weds. So I have to stay in jurong with 3 monsters.

Sunday, August 07, 2011

irritated early morning

The Jurong Green CC is making me angry almost every sunday morning.
My girl's art class starts at 9am, and the CC doors open at 9am.
Does it makes sense, how can one enter the door and start lesson at same time?
Still got to climb the stairs etc.

Why can't the staff come at 8.45am to open the doors?
Why every week have to let all the parents wait outside?
Today the rain is so big, about 50 parents waiting outside with children, cold and angry.
The wind so big and the thunder so loud, and rain splasing in. And they didn't open the door early nevermind, they still dare to open it late at 9.07am.

I wrote so many feedback forms, did they even go to the right people? or throw inside waste paper basket already? The art teacher say she also got feedback, but they also didn't do anything.sickening right?

Its a very small issue, just let the staff work at 8.45 and ends the day early by 15mins. Still alot of ways to solve it. Ignoring the problem only makes the whole thing become worse. Why is it that "THEY" have to always wait for things to happen then take action?
Since THEY say the CC belongs to them, then they should be responsible for it.
Always say and never do.
Always promise and never keep.
Always threaten and never try to solve problems.
sickening. sickening. sickening.

Friday, August 05, 2011

日记

在这个部落格出现之前,
我有写日记的习惯,但不是天天写。
只是时不时就会记录当天发生的事。
想不到这样一写就写了三本。
昨天在找东西时,不经意翻了一翻。
感觉竟然像在偷看别人的日记。
真的不敢相信里面的文字是过去的自己写的。
有些超好笑的。
有超过10年的历史,但字迹看起来还很清晰,
像不久前才写的。
想不到它们保养得比我更好。
我觉得过去的我用字比较大胆,驾驭文字的能力比现在好。
可能现在有了年龄,反而不能随心所欲。
有些很模糊的记忆,看了日记后又渐渐清晰。
还算完整的日记本,但是中间有一大段是空白的。
我有点印象,好像是很生气的时候把它们撕掉的。
把不堪回首的一小部分删去了。
人生路很长,但不能尽如人意。
总有些遗憾,因为总希望在某个阶段,回忆可以更加美丽。
因为时光是不能倒流的。
因为年轻也只有这么一回。
有些遗憾是无法停留在最美丽的一刻。
如果知道最完美的时候是哪年哪月的哪一天,
就会让它定格。
有些遗憾是原本可以有更难忘的记忆,
却因为自己的执著而改变了什么。
在不该犹豫的时候想太多,
在该思考的时候又用脑子太少。

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

1000 posts

I have posted 1000 posts on this blog already.
Thats really alot.

my girls ate 2.5 cups of jellies each.
I am still left with 3 small jellies and 2 "bowls" of jellies.
Will bring some over to my mum's house tomolo morning.
Will be in jurong tomolo and will bring my june for injection.

Leng and san will be going on an excursion trip to sentosa butterfly garden tomolo morning. Hope they will have fun there.

Hubby's MBA class start again tomolo, until next monday.
After that he will be busy doing assignments.
Still a long way to go.
Until next year June then the whole course will end.
After that will be less busy.
By then maybe time for me to go back school to teach.

healthy jellies



jellies




The jellies taste quite good.
If i didnt dilute the orange juice with water,
the taste will be even better.
So conclusion is , even without any sugar,
it is possible to make the jellies.
So jellies can actually be very healthy.

dinner


today dinner. quite ok.
the girls say nice.
peanut,corn,fishcake,chicken porriage.

jellies on the way

the jellies are now in the fridge.
tonight they will be ready for eating.
Hope they will taste ok.
I didn't add sugar, so i guess they will taste probably very plain.
didn't manage to buy raspberries.
Can't find them at NP cold storage, but manage to buy blue berries from NTUC.
And strawberries.
And the big oranges are not very juicy.
Spent so much to buy the oranges, end up only the skin is thick. Not much juice. Next time i will buy the normal oranges.
Didn't manage to collect 1litre of orange juice, so I have to dilute with water.

tonite i will cook porriage for my girls.
They like peanuts inside the porriage and I prepare some corn for them also.
And also fish cake and chicken meat add together inside.

just finish washing up for my jelly making. Hate washing.
so many things to clean and clear up.

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

wednesday

Tomorrow I will be trying out making jelly.
bought some oranges, big and juicy for the orange juice.
And tomorrow i will buy the strawberries, raspberries and blueberries.
Hope the jellies will turn out nice.

And most importantly, hope my virus will not explode.
Now trying hard to fight off the virus by drinking pi pa gao.
a slight cough.
Hope won't become the 100 days cough again.

朋友们,你们都好吗?

因为太少联络,都不知道你们最近好不好?
生活中是不是有不如意的事。
原本想搞个小聚会,但下个星期我的时间没办法办到。
看来得等9月学校假期。
虽然见面的机会和时间不多,但你们都是我最珍惜的朋友。
我是个很奇怪的人,
“朋友”的定义和划分很分明。
我有很多工作上的好伙伴,但是属于“同事”而不是“朋友”。
当然也有几个“升华”变“朋友”,
但感觉还是不同的。
从念书时期,一路陪伴走来的朋友,
是不同的。

回想过去,最要好的两位,应该就是莲和芳。
虽然不常见面,但是“过去式”,也是“现在式”,也会是“未来式”的朋友。
曾经分享很多的秘密。
对我而言,“秘密”不是不能让人知道的事。
而是不能让全世界的人知道,但可以选择性让某些人知道的事。
“秘密”也是有期限的。有些人和事变得不重要了,
就不再是秘密。
当年的那些秘密,现在都不再是秘密了。

去年,芳突然传了两张我们在教育学院念书时共同拥有的储存柜的照片。
她问我记得吗。
当然记得。我们的柜子的名字我都还记得。
和她一起住在宿舍的那一年,是我念书的那几年,最难过的一年。
也还好有她在。
我一直很佩服她,因为她对事情的坚持,是我做不到的。
不管是念书或感情,她都是凭毅力和决心一路走来。
但是我靠的却是运气。
一直都是。

不常见面,但
希望你们都过得好。

醉后16

刚看完《醉后》第16集。
喜欢里头的一句话:
“没有过不去的事情,只有过不去的心情。”

真的,事情不论大小好坏总会过去。
但是心情不同。
事情过去了,心情却总是过不去。
留下来了,而且可以一直住下来。
在心里。
可以住很久,可能是一辈子。
有些事情很久远,但是当时的心情却总是跨不出时间。
停留在某年某月的某一天。
时不时就会突然弹出来吓一跳。
这样的心情不论过了多久,
都跨不出当年的时间。
因为人的心,
不可能像头脑那么理智。
事情过去了,靠的是理智。
但心情过不去,不是理智所能控制。

很有意思。

Monday, August 01, 2011

signs of falling sick

My throat is a little bit funny today. And signs of coughing. If I can't keep the virus from exploding, I will be falling sick soon. And this time of the year, reminds me of last year's dengue thing. I was so sick last year national day time. And now national day is coming, bad omen for me. Hope I will not fall sick.

遇见

刚才遇见云老师。
在northpoint.他说他到医院看牙医,正要搭地铁回宏茂桥。
好久好久没有见到他,他的样子依然没变。
好怀念以前上课的时候。
他刚离开教育学院,现在做些写作的工作。
我也在书局看过他一系列的儿童图书。
问起其他老师。
好像都走得七七八八。
问起张爱东老师,陈照明老师。。。。。。
好想回去看看这些老师。
我也听说现在那里的情况和过去不同了。
我大概了解是怎么一回事。

文学和语文,
其实我还是喜欢文学。
以前上云老师的课也是如此。
有一阵子,我上他的一门课,还患上恐惧症。
是一门声韵学的课,那时他的样子可怕极了,
心情好像非常不好,因为不想上课,我还逃了好几堂课。
但是文学课,我就从不缺课,除了出水豆的那一个月。

真的想回去看看。
云老师说不回去也罢。
听起来对那里的种种该是很失望吧?
回去,不知道该找谁,说些什么。
但真想回去。
以前也跟Ron回去几次。
后来就没有再回去了。
忙着生孩子,总是错过教师节。
一个人回去,总觉得别扭。
如果跟Ron一起回去,可以把说话的部分都交给他。
现在很难像以前那样了。
大家都各忙各的。
但再不回去,恐怕也就真的不用回去了。
我相信之后,还会有更多人事变动,
也许教文学的老师最后真的会都离开了。