Talk nonsense

My san san just now woke up....like wan to puke. Then i quickly take dustbin and put infont of her. Then she suddenly lean her head backward, seated position, and look at the ceiling or look at me....not sure, coz her eyes not focused. Then start to talk nonsense again. Not sure what she say...but i heard she call me... But dun know what is it about....she also mention my hubby..."妈妈。。。。。＂，＂爸爸。。。。。。＂.then cry a bit and i say i put wet towel on her forehead, she say ok. When i take the towel, she refused to let me put. I fed the stronger fever medicine. The fever still very high. Dun know if i should go sleep first or wait a while......

Still fever

I just fed med to san san at 12am. She is still having high fever at 39.6 I am thinking if i should use the stronger fever med now. Or i should wait another hour. So that in between, the gap is not that big and i can fall back to the other fever med when the fever didnt go down. One is 4 hours interval and the stronger one is 6 hours interval.maybe i will feed at 1am if temp still as high, and at 4am feed another type. Will have to set alarm to wake up at 4am. I am very used to sleeping late and sleeping very little. I think the sense of responsibilty of being a mother, can overcome alot of things.very naturally u will do alot of things which u never thought u will be able to do, and the sense of duty is very strong.i can dun sleep for a few days if i have to do so, but i cannot do it for a long time. Age is catching up also, so i dont have that much energy.hope tomolo san san will be better. Recently she keep falling sick, and she has lost alot of weight already. Her round face has become pointed.

Shock

I got a shock when i went for sophie wedding dinner just now. Thought there are other teachers, end up i am the only one..haha..so stressed. Even though i have taught the boys at the same table, but that was such a long time ago, and i cant remember most of them, except for weiwen, yuanjie, chenghong and kaijian. Some of the names i still remember, but i cannot link to their faces. I thought i can chit chat with some of my old friends, but end up chatting with my old students. But i had a good exchange of ideas with weiwen. Can see that all of them have grown up....and i am old already. Time really flies. Attending wedding dinner is always what i like, as i like sharing the blissful moments of others. It is a once in a lifetime event, and being a part of it is also a once in a lifetime opportunity.

Two down

San san yesterday also down with fever. So fed med at 2.30am for both of them. This morning went to gp and take more med. and come back already 10am, so didnt manage to go yamaha lesson. San san suppose to have mini concert today. Sighz....anyway she also not well enough to go. Leng seems to be in better condition, but this week she miss the lesson, next two weeks n lessons, so the next lesson will be next year already. San still got lesson next week. Hopefully the falling sick season will stop.

Not again

My big girl just now start running fever. These few weeks really rotating to fall sick. I have recovered. But my san san still having runny nose and phelgm. And now leng leng down with fever. Later i will have to wake up at 2.30am to feed med. will set alarm later. Or maybe i will just wait till 2.30 then go sleep. Dun know if she is able to attend yamaha tomolo. If still not well, i will keep her at my mum house, then i bring san san there. Hope this time she recover fast, if not she will lose weight again. She is so skinny already.

Plans for this weekend

Tomolo morning my hubby will be flying to malaysia for a short trip. Will come back on sunday afternoon. I have lesson in the morning and lesson in the afternoon. So the kids all with my mum. I will probably come back in the evening. Saturday morning i will bring the monsters for music lesson, then maybe go library a while. After that back to jurong. And evening will go ex jwss student wedding dinner. As for sunday, i have lessons in the morning. After that see how timing goes, visiting ah lian in the afternoon. Then night time back to yishun.

Meeting fang

Today afternoon met fang for lunch. She had medical appointment at mt E. so we met at orchard. Went orchard point mushroom pot. Thanks for the treat. We had a very long chat...from 1pm to about 4.30 pm. Have not seen her for quite a while. hopefully everything for her will be good. esp the operation on her hand next year end. After lunch with her, i still had a few places to go. Promise the kids i will borrow books for them and went robinsons to check out shoes for them. But very limited. I think raffles city one will be better.

丑闻

又一个婚外情丑闻。 保密功夫做得不错，等到引咎辞职后才公诸于世。 应该只有领导团队的人才有这样的特别待遇。 不然早就成为各大媒体的头条，怎么可能现在才曝光。 我个人觉得，网民把女方揪出来并没有错。因为她不是局外人，她是当事人。做错事，必须有承担的勇气。 早知今日何必当初。如果一开始就知道对方已婚，还坚持搞婚外情，那没法原谅。因为这是一种选择，自己既然这样选，就该知道东窗事发后必须付出的代价。everything is a package. 你可以选择快乐，但是必须有原则。前提应该是对方已离婚，或未婚，反正要单身。自己也必须离婚，或未婚或单身。这是游戏规则，违反了后果自负。 特别是公众人物，私生活一定是摊开来，没法隐藏的。不想面对媒体的包围，就遵守游戏规则吧。 我对第三者是没有成见的。要看情况而论。如果是不知道自己是第三者的那些人，我认为情有可原。因为他们也是受害者。但是知情者就不同，我觉得享受了快乐就必须承担后果。这本来就是一整个配套。不要因为暂时的快乐，短暂的快乐而让自己陷入这样不堪的处境。当你觉得遇见了一个人，有相见恨晚的感觉，再回头想想，在很久以前，也有那样的一个人给你同样的感觉，但是因为生活的种种繁琐的事情，把原本能够很单纯的感情，变得复杂，变得失去原味，变得平淡无奇。人在安稳的生活呆久了，就想要点刺激，想要过更有挑战性的生活。这是屁股痒，吃饱撑着。在每天惊心动魄的生活中，又向往安定。但是不管再激情，再多火花的感情，最后都会升华，不可能永远处于这样的阶段。对我来说，这是人生不同阶段的成长。当然最初遇人不淑，后来遇见对的人，这样的组合，我当然给予祝福，但是前提还是，请照着游戏规则走。不要在不清不楚的状态发展新恋情。让家里的那个人最后一个才知道真相是很残忍的，对方应该要是第一个被告知的才对。因为了解而分开，我认为没有错，只要分开后大家都找回自己的生活，纠缠不清才要命。但是不管怎样，一切都要照着游戏规则走。

Gathering nie friends

This afternoon lunch at suntec loving hut. A small gathering. Zhen last minute cannot make it on time as she had to bring bb for injection. Ron went overseas. So we have kenneth and his wife and bb boy, jia and lin, and me and little june. A lunch and chit chat session. After that i send little june back jurong. Next year will organize another gathering. Hopefully all can come. Hopefully i wun forget, if i forget, hope someone can remind me....hope at least we can gather once in a year.

斗嘴

魔头杉：我叫蚊子叮你。 我：我不怕。 魔头杉：我叫它叮很大力，很痛。 我：我才不怕。 魔头杉：你怕！ 我：我不怕！ 魔头杉：你坏蛋！ 我：对，你坏蛋！ 魔头杉：是你，你坏蛋！ 我：对啊，就是你咯，你坏蛋。 每天的例常斗嘴。

Discipline monster san

My san san is very unmanageable this morning. Very cranky mood. Throw tantrum and scold almost everyone in the house. Just because of a piece of cake. She wanted to 'steal' little june piece of cake for breakfast when she finish her share, so we say no. And she start to scream and cry. And scold us. Say we naughty and stupid. And say throw me into dustbin. Of coz she say in chinese. ＂妈妈坏蛋，爸爸坏蛋，姐姐坏蛋，怡君坏蛋。＂＂你很stupid" etc.so i cane her. Many many many times. More than 30 strokes. And she keep challenging me, say not pain. So i cane her more. And she never learn from mistake, one day can repeat this kind of thing a few times. The two other sisters never create this kind of problem for us. And she scream and yell for very long. The pitch so high, i think she has reached the highest pitch one can have. 我的心也很痛，但是不打不成器。if dun teach now, she is going to be even more difficult to handle in future. Now only four years old already 无法无天，need to really discipline her properly.

Little june home

Brought little june back for a short stay since i have no lesson tomolo and tuesday. Will bring her out for gathering with nie classmates on tuesday. Then will bring her back jurong. Since i got lessons on weds morning and afternoon. Just a short stay in yishun, but my mum can make use of the two days to go out and relax. Can go out with my aunt.will try to offload her whenever possible. Little june likes to stay yishun also, can play and sleep together with her two sisters.

纪念日

忘了多少年没有庆祝结婚周年纪念日。 应该是第二个孩子出世之后就没有闲情逸致了。 算一算，明年的五月就步入第九年了。 好快，十周年都快到了。 生活很平静，踏实。 可能年纪也大了， 现在更关心的是生活中的柴米油盐酱醋茶。 不管选择什么样的生活方式， 都要有所牺牲。只要自己觉得值得就行了。无需向任何人交代。

末日

如果末日就要来临， 你想牵谁的手走过回忆。 倒带过去的一点一滴， 在地球毁灭的前夕。 如果末日就要来临， 你想让谁长眠在你怀里。 定格某一个感动的瞬息， 在地球毁灭的前夕。 如果末日就要来临， 你有没有遗憾留在心底， 想对谁说的对不起， 是不是已经来不及。

Plans for next week

Next week is a gathering week. I managed to organize an nie classmate gathering. On tuesday. Only ron will not be able to come as he is overseas. Thurs i am planning to meet up with fang. Hopefully ok. Have not seen her for quite a long time. Saturday i am attending an ex jwss student wedding. time really flies, now my first few batches of students are getting married. will be able to see some of my ex collegues at the dinner.Sunday i am planning to visit lian. But still kiv as she may be too tired for visit. Busy week for next week. But looking forward to it.

感动

谢谢你曾经感动过。为一件很平凡的小事。 那些年的共患难，也是我很珍惜的时光。 虽然有些记忆不太清晰，但现在我也感动于你曾经感动的瞬息。

解梦

今天早上醒来。奇怪的是，竟然还记得梦里的一个画面。 我前面的牙齿，下排的其中一颗，有两个＂洞＂，应该是蛀牙。 我知道梦见掉牙是凶兆，但是我的梦没有牙掉的情形。 只是蛀牙。要怎么解？ 找了周公解梦，没有明确的解释。 我是蛮相信梦的，因为身边就有两个前同事， 说过她们的亲身经验，所以我是相信的。当然不是所有的梦都有意思。

暂停

无病呻吟的时间暂停。 我看戏的时间又到了。

好近好远

突然想到顾城的一首诗。 「你，一会看我，一会看云。我觉得，你看我时很远，你看云时很近。」 人的感情好像也是这样。 好像距离很近，但却又遥不可及。 咫尺天涯。 感情跟时间应该不成正比。 不是认识越久就感情越深。 有些人认识很久，却越来越陌生。 是人心在变，还是一开始就没弄懂对方是什么样的一个人？ 还是因为认识的时间长了，就发霉了，变成另外一种味道。 朋友的交情不能以时间单位衡量计算。 自以为了解一个自以为认识很久的人， 最后可能变得很不堪。 人生没有几个十年，更何况是二十年。 二十年是什么？ 它什么也不是。没有了意义，剩下的也只是一个普通的数字而已。 二十年。是近还是远？ 心？感情？时间？距离？ 不管多少年，会出卖你的感情的人，还是会把它廉价出售。 这样的情况，应该不是二十年前没有认清对方。 而是人心会变，二十年的改变，早已面目全非。 死心眼的人没有改变，又怎么看得见别人的改变呢？

喜欢什么

你知道我喜欢什么吗？ 连我自己都不是很清楚的事， 怎么能希望别人会了解。 喜欢什么样的人？ 喜欢听什么样的音乐？ 喜欢吃什么食物？ 喜欢喝什么饮料？ 喜欢看什么样的电影？ 喜欢去什么样的地方旅行？ 喜欢穿什么款式的服装？ 喜欢交什么样的朋友？ 喜欢在闲暇时做什么事情？ 喜欢过什么样的生活？ 很多时候我的喜欢已经变成习惯。 而且浑然天成，自然得很。 我真的喜欢做这些事情吗？ 我真的喜欢吃这些食物吗？ 曾经在同样的一所学校教课时，吃了将近两年的同样一个摊位的食物。是每天都吃同一个摊位的食物。每天。 应该没有人能做到吧？ 我的喜欢可能不是真的喜欢。 曾经的喜欢变成习惯。所以就习惯接受这样的喜欢。 物极必反。因为喜欢就每天重复，这样应该不好吧？ 因为喜欢某件衣服，而买了同样款式，不同的颜色。 这样的事情我也常做。 因为习惯穿某种款式的鞋子，所以买了很多双一模一样的。 穿坏了，还能换一双一样的。这样的事情我也常做。 一成不变。死心眼。 真的还弄不懂喜欢什么。还是习惯的真的就是最喜欢的？ 死心眼的人如果有一天突然＂开窍＂，应该会很可怕吧？

自然瘦身法

本人最常被迫接受的一种方法。 每次生病之后都会瘦一点。 小病瘦一点，大病瘦一圈。 这次小病让我又瘦了0•5公斤。 其实我现在根本不想瘦身，因为我的问题是局部的问题。 要瘦的不是全身，只是某些部位而已。 39•5 公斤。见不到4的开头了，如果身高也能这样就好。 加个一公分，就好了。

So tired

So so tired today. Fell asleep while reading just now. Energy level low. Have to re charge. Need to sleep earlier today. Hopefully my san san dun give me anymore new patterns today

太高调

最近我很欣赏的音乐王子，绯闻也太多了吧。 很不喜欢这样的感觉，虽然关我屁事。 就是不喜欢太高调的艺人。 喜欢绯闻少，默默耕耘的那种。 讨厌炒作，虽然在娱乐圈的生存之道就是要有新闻。 不管绯闻真假，觉得有实力的人应该以行动证明。 与其浪费时间在这种没有价值的绯闻上，还不如多花时间创作更多作品。 还是蛮令人失望的。

不切实际的梦想

梦想往往都不切实际。 我的梦想是。。。。。。 应该说这个moment想的是。。。。。。 希望在这个很小的空间， 开辟一个真正的花园城市。 很浪费资源的梦想。 想要一年四季，躺在花海中欣赏大自然。 想要看一整片的花，不需要再乘搭飞机到国外。 真的就很喜欢花。 原来一直就是个花痴。

Movie today

Brought my girl to watch frankenweenie today. She dun like. I think because of the color. Black and white kind, and the characters inside all look like monsters. She was so scared, keep grabbing my hand. Actually the idea is good, about a boy love for his dog, and how he get the dog back to life.some kind of freaking Science experiment.but i dun like the non colouful kind of anmations, and of coz the characters all look very disturbing.and pace is slow. scenes are disturbing. and cemetry, dead creatures, horrifying faces of characters,not my type of show. Still prefer the colouful rise of the guardians kind of show.

厨房的雨一直下

厨房还在下雨。 大概要下一整夜吧。 我的床单洗了两遍。 应该还要再洗第三遍。 只有在这一方面，我会有点洁癖。 因为病菌看不见，多洗几遍自己也比较安心。 当然还要消毒。这些都能做到。 唯独那只已经睡着的魔头杉不能消毒。 不要再生病了。 都不知道刚刚病过，是不是才好，还是还没好。现在又来一次历史重演。 这两个月真的是破财消灾。 想要省钱，还真的就不能省。

好笑

今天的这集「真爱趁现在」超好笑的。两个男主角喝醉酒睡在一起。爆笑。厉害的演员把不同角色都演出特色。想到之前的「爱上巧克力」也有这个演员，但是他演起来完全没有上一个角色的影子，真的很棒。捉住每一个角色的不同点很重要。演戏不能是做自己。想到「螺丝小姐要出嫁」里头的男主角，完全就是「小资女孩」里同一个人，也是另一部戏的角色。同样的感觉。很不对，这样的感觉。怎么可能「高承宽」、「秦子奇」、「项天齐」都一样味道。他们再相似也该有不同之处吧。应该发挥这些不同的地方。而不是一直捉住共同之处。演戏真的单靠帅不行，一定要有实力，不然看久了会腻。所以「螺丝小姐」我已经不看了。现在只剩两部还在看的新剧。

Kitchen flooding

My san san has alot of phelgm, and sleeping in aircon room make her cough. Then just now she puke. So i got to change bed sheets and her clothing etc. now have do do washing. And when i go kitchen, i found the floor wet. Really jialat. And the rubbish chute like waterfall, i dun even have to open it, can hear the water sound. Internally my pipes are not leaking, so something outside is leaking water. I woke my hubby up to check, really not good with all this technical stuffs. And he just take a look, say it external problem, and go back sleep....haha....din even bother about the flooding kitchen. Dun know tomolo morning what will happen to my kitchen if the water din stop flowing. I also cant be bother. Sms my neighbour upstairs. Leng leng gd friend JR's mum. No reply. Haha. Of coz, normal people at this time will be sleeping, who on earth will be like me watching drama series. So dun know if her kitchen also flood with water.

No pictures

Have not been posting any photos on blog for a long time. Reason is using my desktop to view blog got problem, photos also cannot upload. So i can only update blog by typing wordings using ipad. And ipad i cant upload photos. Dont know whats wrong with my desktop, maybe getting old.

迁就

不能将就，只能迁就。 感情不能将就。 婚姻需要迁就。

Maybe a gathering

The last time i seen my nie classmates was in 2010 dec. i just checked my blog entry. That means last year we didnt meet up. Am i supposed to organize it a yearly basis? I cant remember if i said that. Thinking of organizing one this month. Not yet contact them yet, but i guess zhen probably cannot come. She has family stuffs to settle. I think ron and kenneth should be ok. I have yet to see kenneth's bb boy. Will be a good time. Jia should be alright too if she din go overseas. Lin should be ok if schedule fits in. Cant believe 2 years have passed since we last meet up. I missed those nie days. Those days at the old nie bukit timah campus.

Plans for tomolo

Tomolo morning bring my girl to pri sch for prepartory course. Then after that maybe bring her for another movie. Maybe after that go library. Going library is my daily routine. I dont even know which books i have borrowed before. Today i borrowed 48 books in total. I think my girl has cleared half of them already. So tomolo have to return and borrow new ones. Very tiring daily job of carrying books. But the kids are happy when i came home with new library books and those quest cards from library.

Meet up

Today met sandra, alice and kathleen for tea and chit chat. Had a very good chit chat session for a few hours. Hope to meet up with some others also. But sometimes really difficult, as my free time and others free time always different.

看新剧

最近又发现了一部还可以看的新剧。剧名不怎么样，但看了几集后，感觉还好。「姐姐立正向前走」，又是姐弟恋的剧情。但还蛮喜欢林心如，也蛮喜欢林更新，他一直让我想到「十四爷」，「步步惊心」里我最喜欢的其中一个角色。只是觉得他的古装造型比较有魅力。

San san dentist visit

Today brought san san to gpa dental at united square. My san san first visit to dentist. The dentist is quite nice. Very patient. Show her all the tools, let her hold the tools. Then show her how the tool is use. But san san is very stubborn and strong willed child. So despite the dentist being very nice, she still kick up a big fuss. Once the tool gets inside her mouth, she start to cry and scream and yell. And we got to help to held her hands in position, and she will start to kick. Haha. But she got the hole in the tooth filled up. Hopefully she will start to brush her teeth. But very difficult, becoz after that she still say she is not going to brush her teeth. Leng leng seen the dentist also. Do washing for teeth. She is ok. just that she seen san san screaming so badly, so she thought it is a horrible experience. but after that she finds everything ok. Everything add up, the total damage for today is 300 bucks.

Tooth decay

San san has a hole in one of her tooth. I think tomolo we have to bring her to see dentist. Result of her own stubborness, refused to brush her teeth properly. Sometimes she for show take tooth brush and act like brushing, but she din brush. So now she has to face the consequences. And she need to see tcm for her stomach also. Already more than one week, but her frequency of passing motion is still a bit too many. After every meal, she will pass motion. Though she dont complain of stomachache already,but the stools are still quite mashy. Each day she eats five meals, and she will pass motion five times. Three main meals and two snack times. I guess time for the tooth fairy to come and colect her tooth.

Very nice movie

Rise of the guardians. Very nice movie. Good story. Meaningful. Children will like. Even for me, someone who dont really like to watch animations, like this movie also. If compare to lorax, this is even better. Very special plot, how they put all these children favourite characters together and have a story. Santa claus, tooth fairy, easter bunny, sand man, jack frost. A must watch movie. I brought san san and leng leng to watch today at northpoint. And leng leng enjoyed the show alot. Certain part she find funny and will laugh. San san only watch the front part, after that i saw her hugging the popcorn and fell asleep. And when the show coming to an end, she suddenly woke up and start to watch again. The part where she fell asleep with the pop corn box in her arms looks so funny. Leng leng love the show so much that she say she want to watch a second time. It was a really nice nice show.children enjoyed the show, but they are still not able to understand the bigger meaning in the show. I think slowly they will appreciate more. I like the way they try to put the "belief"/"faith" message across. We are what we believed. If we choose to believe in the bad things, the bad things will come and stay in us. And we will not see the good things anymore. Only when you believe in something then you will be able to "see" that something. We should always have this faith and belief in us, if not there will only be darkness and no hope. It is a choice, to believe in the correct things and choose to be the correct person. In the show, jack frost finding his own identity and from disbelieving to fighting his way to become the guardian. One of the guardians for the children of the world. Certain part of the show is very touching. Good movie.

Movie

Thinking of bringing my girls to watch movie tomolo since my lesson is cancelled last min. Thinking of watching rise of the guardians.but i think the timing my san san may fall asleep inside. But dont have better timing, and dun want to travel to other cinemas though price may be cheaper by half. I think i dont have that kind of energy level to bring them taking public transport here and there. Northpoint should be a better option. But pay more for the tickets.see how tomolo.

再重温

今天又看了一集「我可能不会爱你」。特别喜欢最后的三集。因为有很多内心戏。也很喜欢程，李，丁，这三个人关系的处理。很圆满，很自然。让原本要忏悔的程，撞见了劈腿的丁，这样把原本的罪恶感消除了。让男女主角顺理成章成为一对。很喜欢这样的转折。那一幕特别惊心。觉得不是相爱就适合婚姻这样的制度。就算很爱很爱也未必适合。因为婚姻是需要经营的，单靠爱无法维系。也许不用很爱，但很合适的两个人组成的婚姻关系能维系更久。要维系好婚姻，要妥协，要迁就，要退让，要成全，要宽容，要包容，要体谅，要信任。。。。。。太轰轰烈烈的爱或许做不到。因为很多时候是理智来决定而不是凭感觉。生活其实就是那么一回事。

想说

心里有很多话想说。 但是却不能用「说」的。 没有很在意是不是有人在听。 其实已经很习惯自己成为唯一的聆听者。 毕竟让自己成为最了解自己的人并没有什么不好。 有些事说出去也挺没意思的。 听的人如果没用心， 还倒不如不说。 没有开心，至少不至于不开心。

重温

今天重温了一集「我可能不会爱你」。 「李大仁」真的就是＂理想情人＂的化身。 每个女人都希望身边有一个这样的人。 但是我常常想，这个可以＂聊一聊＂的人如果真的就变成了自己的另一半以后， 还会不会是最初的那个知己？ 可能就不再是那个你有事情想聊一聊的对象了。 这个「李大仁」的位置或许只能处于一种暧昧关系。

Strike

My views on these two days, the smrt prc drivers strike news. An irresposible act. There are some people who say these people are brave etc. dare to fight for their rights etc. yah yah yah...at the expense of others. This is just not right. What happen to the commuters? So if teacher also like that, not happy not happy go on strike can or not? So students just leave one side...like that can? Is that call bravery?sorry lor...i dun agree. These people i am sure before they came already know what is the pay like. So if you accept the terms and conditions, you come. If you dont agree, dont come. Dont come liao and start to compare. Comparing is endless. And also please compare apple to apple. You got free lodging, malaysian dont have. So they have higher pay cannot meh. Why you not happy?rental in spore is not cheap also, so everything add up, pay more or less the same lah, so please dont ask too much. And your driving skills sucks. If you want more pay, can, please go and make sure you understand spore traffic rules and correct way to drive. Here is not u like to turn u turn, no people can just drive. Follow traffic rule ok. I dont mind paying a bit more for safety, but for poor quality service like this, i think you go back home better. 对事不对人。just my views.

Always sick

Why always sick....if i divide the number of days in a year, half the time i am sick....so its like one week sick, one week well, follow by another week sick, another week well.....endless.so so tired.

Bad flu

I am down with bad flu. Cough. Stuffy nose. Sore throat. Still have medicine from last month doc visit. I took the same medicine and see how. San san still no appetite to eat. Drink only a bit water. Watery stools. But fewer times already. Still in bad mood. But yesterday night, she still dance for the childcare graduation concert. Intially i want to keep her at home. But the teacher and principal phone me, say she is very important in the concert and they will take care of her. Will change diapers for her etc. so i say ok. Luckily she din faint during dance. She has not eaten for 3 days already. And with so little fluid intake, i think she is going to be dyhadrated. But her character is so strong, very difficult to get her to eat or to drink.if still like that, very soon we have to send her to hospital for drip.

Seen pd

Just bring my san san seen pd. this morning she woke up and start talking nonsense, scare me. Asking me to carry her high high so that she can see animals. Then keep pointing at curtain say want to see whatever. And say got lizard on ceiling when there isnt any. I suspect she is having fever and her mind in state of confusion. Put all those previous images together and say. On the way to pd, she pass motion. Say stomachache. Watery stools. I got to buy diaper from ntuc and wet tissue. And change for her at the clinic toilet. I think for the next few days, have to put her on diapers just in case she suddenly pass motion. After seen doc, buy some milo, corn flakes from ntuc. She din eat breakfast, no appetite, so i guess she can eat abit of the milo later. Since she cannot take milk now.just fed her another round of medicine. She is sleeping now. My leng leng is in sch today.

Again

My san san after i fed her the fever medicine, vomitted again. All the mediicne came out. I dont know if i should give her another round of new medicine or not. I think i moniter and see how. If not feed again, throws up again, then no use also.i think i dont need to sleep liao since a few more hours the morning sun will rise.

Not eating

My big girl has not been eating for the past one week plus. Really no eating. Din eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. She has got total no appetite. I really afraid she will faint from hunger. But luckily she still willing to drink. So she drinks about 3 packet of milk per day. But those children milk in small packet. She is already so skinny, now even worse. Sometimes i can feel that she is hungry, but she refuse to admit so, and she refuse to take in any food. If we force her to eat, her face will turn pale, and she will cry. If we dont force her, all ok. Except that she will reach a stage whereby she will have no strength and no energy to do things. Probably just lie there, because of hunger. I really dun know how to deal with her. I shall wait another two days. After friday graduation concert, if she still give me this kind of nonsense, i will really force her to eat. How can go without food for weeks.

Busy night

I shall just keep myself awake for another one hour, since san san medicine time is near. Just now she vomitted. And i have to clear the mess and change the bedsheet. Luckily there is mattress protector. So now i am doing washing and at the same time waiting for her next medicine timing.Her stomach also not too good. She had watery stools. Three times already. Fever is very high. Even after medication. So i have to be really careful. Have to moniter her every hour. Fever plus vomitting plus watery stools, seems like a stomach flu virus.......tomorrow have to bring her see doc. Cannot bring my mum and little june out liao. Friday is concert day....dun know she will be ok to perform or not. Recently the whole family sick one after another. Currently my sis in law having hfmd. Should be the same virus that we kena two weeks ago. So we din go over my in law house since last weds. Have to wait until next week then can go over. But same virus, probably will not kena twice. Read from somewhere, hfmd is like dengue, got a few different virus type. Kena one type, next time will not kena the same type again. But really very suay right....keep falling sick...but also can consider lucky as sickness all come at this time, which is one of my most free timing. Sch holidays. I dont have much lessons this period. Can have more time look after them and of coz recover from my own sickness.

眼界

用眼睛看到的世界真的很小。 是真的。 用心看到的世界很大。 是真的。

San san fever

Just discover san san having fever. So sudden. Was still wondering why she is not sleeping yet. I think she was feeling very hot, thats why cannot sleep. I just fed her fever medicine. Will check on her again 4 hours later. Have to set my alarm. Still thinking tomolo bring my little june back. Now seems like not gd to do so. See how tomolo morning. I supposed to bring my mum and little june out to walk walk see see.

Psle result

Psle result releasing soon. Hope my two students can both get A for chinese.

失调

最近好像什么都有点失调，特别是免疫系统。 生病的频率已经失控。 而且说来就来，已经可以在几个小时内发作。 感冒变成家常便饭。 不知道是不是每个月的这个时候最容易生病。 感觉就是喉咙怪怪的，咳嗽又来袭。 希望能够控制住。 因为最近我的心情变差，脾气变坏， 什么都失调。

等待好消息

阿莲已经在医院待产了。 再过几个小时应该就会传来好消息了。 欢迎她加入＂妈妈＂行列。 不得安眠的夜晚才刚刚开始而已。 辛苦了！

好难

想活在当下， 好难。 不想过去，不想未来， 好难。 真的就不是想做就能做到的。 原来“当下”只是某些人的专利。 不管后天怎么努力都斗不过与生俱来的能力。

好的事情

最近有以前教过的学生要结婚了，也有学生大学毕业。 人生的道路每个人一路走来都不同。 有的辛苦一点，有的轻松一点。 不管怎样，风雨过后总能见到彩虹。 我一直都认为一路走来更艰辛的人，会比其他平顺一生的人更懂得珍惜。 因为要走不一样的路，需要多大的决心，一般人难以想象。 最后做到了，一切的辛苦都值得。 我相信这位学有所成的学生将来一定能凭她的毅力和决心，克服其他困难。 因为那一年，我看到她眼神中的斗志。 那么坚定的信念，那么长时间的坚持。 她的成功是因为她能坚持下去。 这样的精神不是什么人都能做到的。 我也希望她将来的路能走得更平顺，更踏实。 因为辛苦过了，也该是苦尽甘来的时候了。 继续加油！

Living in the moment

I like this phrase. "Living in the moment". "Moment"--当下。 活在当下。 "Yesterday is gone.tomorrow has not yet come.we have only today. Let us begin."---mother teresa.

Flight or fight

My big girl seems to be so stressful with whatever thing, i suspect its the concert. Today is the rehearsal for the concert and she cry when going to school. She has not been eating well for the past one week. She skip almost all her dinners. I know the feeling of being scare of standing infront of everyone. I used to be this kind of kid when i was young, but how young or when did situation gets better, i dont remember. But i dont think i have a choice, when it comes to flight or fight, i am always left to fight. But nowadays, kids seems to choose flight very naturally. Regardless of how frightened i was last time, i think i am always stuck with fight, maybe if i had a choice, i would choose flight as well. How should i make her be more resilient?i reassure her so many times that it doesnt matter if she did well or not. As long as she do her best its gd enough. I am not those kind of kiasu parents. Most important is try, even if try and failed, also nevermind.

生理期

又到了这个时候。 穿了三件裤子，还是弄脏了。 真的很烦。害我头疼得厉害。还把晚餐都吐了出来。 越来越没有分寸的生理期。 累死我了。

新影片

昨晚看的一部新电影。 寒战。 蛮喜欢这类型的戏。 比起一般影片，已经算是很紧凑的一部。 但是我是真的很容易倦怠的人。 所以再紧凑的影片，也会让我在间中有闷的感觉。 这部电影应该还有两个续集吧？ 应该是像「无间道」那样的。 自己也稍微做了一点猜测。 到底＂幕后黑手＂是谁？ 有几个小细节好像可以找到一些线索， 但是我还摸不出头绪。 倒觉得刘德华饰演的角色蛮可疑的。 那句＂非常时期，用非常手段＂感觉怪怪。而且他每次出现都给人一种＂全知＂的感觉。 好像事事都在他的意料之中。常常流露一种＂事不关己＂的态度。太平静反而显得怪异。 个人的感觉。 再来就是彭于晏饰演的角色手指部分的小动作， 也许只是要呈现这个人物内心世界的某个状态。 但是还是很可疑。还有结尾出现的那两本书。一本是父亲手中的，一本是儿子手中的。 是两本不同的书。父亲的那本，书名忘了。但是儿子手中的那本是「shadow warrior」， 好像是说一个正面人物后来变成反面人物，然后尽做些坏事，挑战正义之士。我的感觉是，这两本书分别象征＂正＂和＂邪＂。一个正义的父亲，和一个反面的儿子。而且那句＂所有战争都是可以避免的不必要战争＂，似乎在暗示什么。最后梁家辉饰演的角色又纠正了这句话＂不是所有的战争都是不必要的＂。也就是说＂寒战＂也许是个必要的战争。对于男主角来说却不是。第一，因为他不觉得有必要为了争权夺利而开战。第二，没有必要为了一件挟持案而把国家放在一级戒备壮况下。所以他一开始才会说＂寒战＂这个代号是错误的。但是我不认为梁家辉饰演的角色是幕后黑手。我认为另有其人。但是我又不能不怀疑他和彭之间的关系。最后父子对峙的戏，有太多小细节。是不是父子之间的默契已经超越了言语？是不是通过动作，眼神就能传递消息？还有在书的某一页折角，又是什么意思呢？彭在狱中的那个表情也很怪异。打的那几声响指好像也有意思。 但是我还弄不清楚幕后黑手的目的是什么。那么大费周章为了什么，我还没理出头绪。因为不可能是鸡毛蒜皮的小事，但是大事我又想不出来。唯一有可能的是一种理想的精神世界。因为彭于晏饰演的角色是一个智商非常高的人。看起来就像有点神经质的那种。应该会想些奇奇怪怪的事，而且符合他人物形象。而幕后黑手可能也是这样的一个人。所以他们的精神状态相似。应该对世界或国家有某一种他们认为是合理的观念。而这种观念在一般人眼中就是恐怖主义。如果按照这样的线索来说故事，情节就合理化。不然很难想出什么原因使他们策划这一系列的事情。如果是为了小仇小爱，也未免太肤浅了。应该是一种形而上的思想观念。所以才有这么多自愿的牺牲者或者同谋。如果是为了权力或利益，很容易众叛亲离，不可能那么多支持者。只有信仰或某种精神方面的追求，才有可能造就一群无怨无悔的信徒。这只是我个人的猜测。也可能是我的想象力太丰富了。说不定故事就真的只是为了小情小爱。

旧事重提

有些事情过去了就算了。 但是偏偏会有这样的人，喜欢旧事重提。 只记得别人的种种不是。没有留任何余地让人解释。 觉得全天下的人都负了他，把失败归咎于别人的不义。 就算对方真的有错的地方，难道你没有曾经犯过类似的错误而不自觉吗？ 世界不是为了你而转的。 懂得为自己的失败找借口和理由， 怎么就不能把这样的权利给那些你认为负了你的人？ 当然要做个大器之人谈何容易， 要懂得如何不生气，怎样释放所有的怨气。 很怕遇见小女人和小男人。 因为这些人想的事情，永远都是最无谓的。 要明白，不是所有的付出都会获得相应的回报。 不是每件事情都能顺着自己的心意完成。 那些成功的人也未必是因为很努力的结果。 难道就因为这样，就要自怨自艾，就要认为老天对你最最最不公平。 这样的你，好像认为自己已经是世界的中心。 因为把自己放大，放得太大而看不见别人，连自己也膨胀到看不见了。 其实每个人都很渺小， 就算是自己活在自己的小宇宙里有什么不好？ 最起码不会变成讨人厌的自大狂。

没戏看

忘了今天是星期五。没戏看。 莫名的失落。

Kns style

I hope someone can stop this gns style thingy. It seem more like a kns style to me. If tv and computer games poison the minds of young children,this kns style do more damage ok. Stop promoting it. And i am not against kpop,in fact i have nothing against pop culture. But please choose those meaningful ones to promote.esp. The autorities ok. There are other more meaningful kpop than this kns style right. The attention given to this idiotic dance is too much. I think it create more stress than relieve stress.i know many people do not agree with me, but doesnt matter. This is how i feel about the whole kns style.To me it is just kns. And more kns to come i know. And i know my girl graduation concert is also going to have this kns, and i hate this!

娱乐

看戏有时候需要思考，有时候纯粹娱乐。 看现在一般的偶像剧，不能用脑。因为不好看。如果用脑，直接想就可以了，何必看。 我好像看太多偶像剧，影响到我的思考能力。不过我真的有过这样的能力吗？我自己也很怀疑。 但是看太多会脑残，这是真的。

突然活跃

现在脑子突然之间变得非常活跃。 想到台湾偶像剧剧情为什么总是那么讨人厌。 是编剧有问题吗？干嘛把好好的一部戏拖到80集。 而且总是在大家都知道会发生什么事的情况下，真的就让那几个无关紧要的人出来闹场。 见好不收变成通病。在这点上，港剧就很到位。总是见好就收。但是港剧也有它的特色，喜欢就是特点，不喜欢就是缺点。通常结局都在意料之中。这没什么不好，总比某些戏做到最后不知道在做什么。与其说有创意，不如说是不负责任，或者担不起责任。为了迎合观众，或为了怕不能迎合观众，给了一个没有结局的结局。这种最讨厌。当然台湾偶像剧和港剧都没有这样的问题。发现港剧的特点，人物不会节外生枝，但是人物性格总有转变。不是好的变成坏的，就是恶的变成善的。再来就是故事题材不是医生就是律师，再不然就是警察，或是商场竞争。反正就是演戏演＂全套＂。最近也看了两部和警察有关的。当然我是被动式看港剧的，因为家里有人爱看。戏就一定要这样演，明明就是一个十恶不赦的人，开枪把他的头打爆，不就得了。但是就要先喊一声：＂警察，别跑。＂很白痴对吧，还叫人别跑。是在提醒他要跑吗。或者明知道他下个步骤就是跑，还说出来干嘛。这一招叫＂打草惊蛇＂，差不多所有的有警察的戏都少不了。而且还不分国籍。当然我不是不能理解在动作上需要有这样的安排。想象一下，警察走到罪犯身边，悄悄的，一句话也不说，省略＂打草惊蛇＂这一招，直接来个扣上手铐，没有交流，没有互动。这样有戏看吗？看不到精彩，弄不出高潮，当然也不会有人在那里碎碎念。但是这样好看吗？可以看吗？没看过，所以没感觉。但是光用想的，那画面就很无感。

赶工

最近要赶工。因为女儿的压力问题，我得在最短的时间阅读一切手头上寻获的书籍，希望能得到一些启发，让我更好地处理问题。她的问题就是我的问题。今天看的都是英文书。其实阅读英文书感觉上比较快能吸收理解。为什么呢？因为那些翻译成中文的书，整个读起来就很乏味，不知道是翻译的人有问题，还是我的问题。但是他的问题也是我的问题。今天读到这一段：there is no question that the things we think have a tremendous effect on our bodies. If we change our thinking,the body frequently heals itself.----c.Everett koop,MD,former surgeon general of the united states. 我们心里想的，真的会影响身体。所以「身心」总是连着用。当然想还是脑的工作，但是大脑不管想什么，想到某些事情，心还是会有感觉。心痛的感觉。感觉上，好像思考的还是心。不单是身体会受影响，整个人的气质也会。所谓「相由心生」，一个人是个怎样的人，很多时候他的一切从样子可以看出蛛丝马迹。想太多对身体不好，心不好想的东西就不好，对气质对身体，对什么都不好。我好像又开始语无伦次了。该睡了吧。晚安。

没有如果

生活是实在的， 没有 如果。 如果，那就不是生活。

想看的戏

目前比较能吸引我的台湾偶像剧「真爱趁现在」。 第十一集，，距离结尾还有很长的一段路程。 到目前为止，还蛮好看的。再之后就很难说。 觉得戏里的女主角的性格，跟自己的个性有相似之处。 所以看了之后，会看到一些自己的影子。 指的是处理事情的态度和方法。 所以看这部戏，都把焦点放在她身上。 看了之后会分析如果自己处在同样一种情况， 会不会用同样的方式处理问题。 结果态度和方法都相近。 希望这部戏接下来的剧情不会令我倒胃。

Stress?

My big girl may be having some signs of stress. Last year around this timing, she had a 'stomachache' problem. And after that very very bad enzema. And after that her concert day. And now she is having this no reason loss of appetite, tiredness, and stomachache. Exactly same as last year problem, and around same timing also. Next friday is her graduation concert. I brought her see doc today, but no sign of any problem. And for the whole day she was quite active. But when comes to night time, she became very tired. Then in the morning also very tired. But when she knows she is not going to school, she will suddenly become back to normal. Except for appettie. Since last night she has not been eating. She is not having fever, but body a bit warm. But sometimes in the morning, when i sent her to school, her hands are very cold and face n lips very pale.seems to be very scared. And just now i ask her anywhere pain, she say dun have. But she went to bed very early. 8.30pm she went into the room herself, and very quiet.i guess she is having some stress in school. Most probably is her concert. Really dun know how to manage her stress.

最近没在看戏

很多台湾偶像剧看到一半就看不下去。 之前看的那些，很多看不下去。 勉强还在看的只剩「螺丝小姐要出嫁」。 早早就放弃的就是那部原本非常可以看的「剩女保镖」。 但是大概到了一半，就看不下去了。再好的戏也千万别拖到80集。 顶线应该是35，超过就很容易变成拖戏的感觉。 现在新加入观看的是「真爱趁现在」。但是因为也是长剧，我有预感到了30集，我就看不下去。 说不定还更早。 现在都在看一些综艺节目，谈话性质的节目。 希望会有更好的偶像剧。像我这种兴致和热忱很快就燃烧掉的人，看那种15集就结束的戏最合适。

Sickness months

Starting last mth, seems like everyone taking turns to fall sick. Last friday my san san had fever, so we din go jurong. And that was like 3 weeks the monsters din go jurong. Yesterday was the two big monsters pyjamas party in sch, so i brought little june back to join the fun and also because my parents going kusu island today. So little june stay over for one night. We just send her back to jurong just now. And now my leng is having a fever. Hopefully when she wakes up tomorrow, she will feel ok. She is not eating well, and seems very tired. Hopefully the sickness cycle will stop. Too much already.

白面包计划

我们的「白面包计划」开始进行。 应该要持续好多年。 但是是值得的。 有些事情必须有破釜沉舟的决心。 没有退路才能坚持。

a week of meetings

This week i dont have much lessons. Tomolo morning will go jurong. After that go library borrow books for the monsters. Then fetch them and send them to in law house. After that i will be meeting my chr ex collegues for dinner. Friday i will be meeting another ex collegue for lunch. I think for next week, my lesson schedule also very empty.

好赞的声音

虽然已经很久没有在音乐界混，但是张克帆的歌声现在还是很赞。 难得的好歌声。 也刚看了小燕之夜，关于吴奇隆的那集。 很替他高兴，终于因为'四爷'爆红。 努力的人，最后一定会有成绩，也许需要花很长的时间证明，但是值得。 小虎队和红孩儿都在我青春回忆中。 希望这些伴随我走过青春岁月的歌手，都能闯出属于自己的一片天。

Monsters falling sick

Leng and san seems to be falling sick. Fever. So i guess probably in another one or two days time, they will kena the spots also. But i still hope its just normal flu virus.

明说

我是一个没有办法猜别人心里在想什么的人。 应该说我不喜欢猜，更不喜欢猜错的感觉。更加不喜欢需要为了不关自己的事而猜。 喜欢别人明说。好的或不好的都要明说。 要什么或不要什么都要明说。 因为我有时候神经比较大条，而且绝大多数的时候都不是心思细密的人。 没有可能一个眼神或一个动作或一句话， 就能透视对方的心思。我不可能做到。 所以不要因为我没有按照你心里想的做出回应而有怨气。 因为我不是那种懂得猜心的人。 我只有在听到很直接，很明确的指示后，才有可能收到讯息。 所以要我做出回应，一定要明说。

More blisters

More blisters but on way to recovery. My hubby also just seen another round doc and confirmed hfmd also. So he is on one week mc. I am on way to recovery. Hopefully my two monsters will be spared from this hfmd virus.

Sick

Sick for the past 2 days. Hubby also. Fever and body ache. Yesterday spots appear on my hands and soles. Some blisters. Very itchy. And about 20 in total. Went to see doc again and confirm its hfmd. I think my brother also down with the same thing.i cannot walk today as my soles all with blisters. Every step is super pain.and very itchy. Until i cannot sleep.sighz....

梦

昨夜做了一个梦。明明就是假的，但却非常真实。 梦见一位老朋友。 至少八年没见了。 这位朋友虽然是男生，但是却是在我的＂姐妹＂名单中。因为他的性向并不一般。 在梦里，他当时的一位朋友告诉我他这几年的状况。那位朋友跟我一点儿也不熟，但是在梦里却像很好的朋友。 他这几年好像没有过得很如意。像是招惹了一些麻烦事，好像工作也丢了。 因为这个奇怪的梦，我想在网上搜索他的消息。但是就是什么也找不到。没有脸书，没有电邮，什么也没有。 像人间蒸发。不知道为什么，我觉得有点儿担心。 朋友，你还好吗？虽然在梦里从你的好朋友口中得知这个惊人的消息，但是我知道这只是个梦，不是真的。 不管是不是真的，你依然是我的好姐妹。 在我心里，永远都是。

Hand foot mouth

My little June is down with hand foot mouth. Hfmd. This morning my mum phone me and say the spots appear. Dun know my leng and san will kena or not. They are also playing with june just over the weekend. Keeping my fingers crossed. Hopefully they wun kena. But luckily my tuition sessions are coming to an end as the primary sch exams are more or less finished. The whole of nov i should be quite free. So even if they kena, i will be able to look after them myself. Thursday and friday i will be going over jurong to look after june. And this week end, the two monsters will stay yishun.hopefully virus has not spread yet.

对症下药

这几天，我很努力在控制我的惯性咳嗽。 西医的药上回看过还剩下不少，就在晚上睡前吃。 白天就喝＂杏仁露＂，中药店卖的那种，矿泉水瓶子装着的。 从星期一开始喝，天天喝，有时候一次买两瓶。喝了几天，好像还蛮有效的。 有控制住，没有恶化的现象。 希望过两天会更好。希望这一次不需要看医生就能自己痊愈。 努力中。

House cleaning

Today's lesson is cancelled. So I spent the whole morning doing cleaning of house. From 9am until 1.30pm. Dead tired. Tasks accomplished:changing of bedsheets, that was like 1 king size, 1 queen size, and 3 singles. Sweeping floor, mopping floor. Wipe windows, clean 2 fans. I hate the dismantling part, very troublesome, still have to put back after that. Cleaning toilets and basins. And do laundry. After that had lunch and borrow books from library for the monsters. Now going library become my almost daily task. And each time have to borrow at least 24 books back. Their reading speed is unbelievable. I wonder if they really read them. I cannot even remember which are the books borrowed before. But when i borrowed the same one back, they remembered. And will grumble, say i keep borrowing the same books.

咳嗽迹象

好像又要开始新一轮的咳嗽。 非常讨厌。

景物人事全非

今天早上，带魔头们到植物园走走。到Nie 的旧址看看。以前最喜欢到那个湖边看天鹅。今天去的时候，发现那条马路不见了。通往当年的学生休闲中心和餐厅的小马路不见了。那栋建筑物也不见了。湖还在，但是和以前不太一样。白色的天鹅也没有了，但是看见两只黑天鹅。和以往不同的是，现在湖边多了很多很多鸭子。还有水鸟。只是曾经熟悉的景物都变了样，很多感触，很多无奈。岁月不只催人老，连回忆都不能留给我们。

Enjoyable dinner session

Had a great dinner session with suling and sanmin. We chat and gossip alot today. Planned to have another lunch together next month. Fixed on the o level chinese exam day. I guess they will be more free.

Free day

Tomolo is my free day. Morning time will bring my big girl to collect passport, after that walk walk, maybe go library. Then evening time, meeting suling and sanmin for dinner. My chr ex colleagues.thursday will be my another free day for this week. Will bring little june and my mum out. Maybe go temple and also walk walk see see. Tomolo my dad will be back from china tour. So fast 10 days over, hope he had a nice holiday.

Refresh knitting

Thinking of going hongkong end of nov. promised the monsters to go see mickey mouse. Previously i knitted two wool sweaters for them, but now i need another one for june, so i may start knitting another. But it has been more than two years i last touch my knitting stuffs. I cannot even remember the knit and purl. I need to refresh everything. I jus managed to do casing and one row of knit. Tomorrow i shall try to refresh the rest.not sure if i will be in time to complete before the trip. And the sweater i wanted to make for my mum is only halfway through. I need to go back and find my knitting teacher, if not i cannot continue. So i may sign up for the weekday afternoon knitting class at tanglin cc. Shall see how. If i get stuck with little june sweater, i may need to go back to the class fast fast. Hopefully i can do all by my own. I need to refresh my memory on knitting stuffs.

不甜蜜的大结局

刚看了「爱就是甜蜜」的大结局。 真的不喜欢。 人生有多少个十年， 在戏里，十年前的他们和十年后的他们，样子看起来都好像没变。 现实生活中的十年，不可能像这样。 我不喜欢这种用时间等待，用时间换幸福的感觉。 原本就不需要这样， 虽然说两个人在十年里，各自成长了很多。 但是我觉得错过的其实更多。 为什么幸福一定要是一种只能选其一的情况？

Earthquake at home

Today my girls are caned. I was at the kitchen washing dishes and i heard a loud sound, something collapse. Sounds like earthquake. My mum rush to see, i rush to see, my hubby rush to see. And in my room, the whole cabinet fell down. On the mattress. Even on the mattress the sound is already so loud like building collapse. And i am not exaggerating. All the things on the cabinet landed everywhere in the room. The two monsters each stand on one side, just slightly above the collapse cabinet. I was so relieved i didnt hearany crying sound. My little june was very lucky. She was not sitting near the cabinet, if not she will be very seriously injured. She was sitting nearthe room door. My hubby caned the two monsters and make sure they realised what is wrong with their actions. How did that cabinet collapse?the two girls open the cabinet drawer and sit inside the drawer. The two girls weight caused the whole cabinet to fell.and very lucky, they somehow, which i dun know how, manage to jump out in such a short time. Very unbelievable, because there is such a high chance they will be trap under the cabinet. And i guess it must be my grandmum protecting them. Because my grandmum potrait was place on top of the cabinet. My mum was so scared that june was hit by the cabinet, when she saw her sitting by the side of the door, she was so relieved. My girls are really behaving more and more like monsters, each day coming up with new ideas of creating havoc.i really hope they learned their lesson today. I cannot imagine what will happen if the collapse cabinet hit any of them. I know my grandmum must be watching over us, if not how can the girls not trapped under the cabinet.they are sitting on the drawer, and when the cabinet collapse, they would have been directly under it.

又是小明

今天看到学生写的作文。又是小明。可是怎么用＂娃娃脸＂，＂白里透红＂，＂像出水的荷花＂等。我问他小明到底是男的还是女的。小明是gay吧？怎么都用些形容女生的词语。悲惨的命运。小明又多了一个新的要扮演的角色。

登对

看了最新一集的「王子的约会」，觉得agnes 和蔡闵佑还蛮登对的。 可惜女生灭灯了。我觉得她太早灭灯了。＂吃＂只是一件小事。就算另一伴爱吃美食，自己不爱，也不会有什么大问题。 最重要的还是兴趣和对生活的态度。当然个性方面也要match. 不知道为什么总觉得这位歌手似乎对这位女生情有独钟。觉得他看对方的眼神真的就很不一样。 应该是早就决定要选她，但是没想到对方却没为他留灯。 觉得真的很可惜，因为他们两个人感觉好登对。

又是电影

其实是昨天看的。 铜雀台。 但是还是觉得有「满城尽带黄金甲」的感觉。 没有留下任何思考点。 只是觉得苏有朋演得还蛮不错。 不是一部会让我留下印象的影片。 过几个月，我很可能把这部片子彻底忘记。 有点失望，可能对这部影片有过高的期望。

可怜的小明

今天无意间听到几个中学生的对话。 ＂I only write one name 小明。＂ 应该是刚考完华文试卷一。 反正就觉得小明是很可怜的人物。 不知道从哪个年代开始，他就注定有悲惨的命运。 除了生病、被车撞、打架、被罚、还有大大小小的意外事件，甚至死亡，全部都是他的命运。 怎么好事总没他的份？ 这也太可悲了。 孩子的名字绝对绝对不能取小明。

流行文化

刚看了最新一集的「姐妹淘心话」。 节目来宾是吴宗宪和康康。 对节目中的一句话很有感触。 ＂没有谁最红。只有当下最红。＂ 是的＂当下＂非常重要。十年前最红的，现在可能惨兮兮。 如果在圈子里弄不懂这个道理是很可悲的。 这就是流行文化。 就算不是在圈子里，人生的运作不也是这样吗？ 你还能够是十年前的你吗？不管是想或不想，都不能后退。 人生只能往前，一条直线。不能后退的直线。 青春过了就是过了， 对谁来说都一样。 所以没有谁最美，也只有当下谁最美。 谁都会被另一个谁取代。 没有必要争这个＂最＂。 所以当下的你，做的决定不需要顾虑这个＂最＂。 ＂最＂就是一个负担。 只要当下是快乐的，是做你想做的， 人生的路，回过头看，就不会是遗憾。

电影

今天有空，看了犀利人妻电影版的最终回。虽然我没追看电视剧，但是知道故事内容。隋棠真的很漂亮，很有气质。很喜欢最终的结局。因为不应该为了一个出轨的男人而放弃自己想要的幸福。男人只要有一次出轨的记录，就很容易成为惯犯。所以凭什么要接受一个这样的人？一家团圆就一定是大团圆结局吗？可以原谅出轨的老公，但是绝对不能重新接受这样的人。所以我是属于那组支持剧中女主角勇于追求新恋情的人。我相信有不少人会想要女主角跟前夫破镜重圆，但是我觉得这样对女性真的很不公平。为什么女性就要吃回头草？牺牲了半辈子的人生，难道就不能过自己想要的生活？当然前提是新的情人一定要能接受对方的孩子。因为怎么说，都要照顾到孩子。但是也不能因为孩子就放弃追求幸福的权利。其实两者是可以兼得的，至少在戏中是如此。 希望现实中的谢安真，能够很快走出情伤。那个不懂得珍惜她的人，错过了本来属于他的幸福。她值得拥有更好的，一个懂得疼惜她的人。加油吧，隋棠。

家家有本难念的经

今天到一个家庭上课。孩子的母亲忘了我今天要过去，把孩子带出门了。我就得等他们回来。家中的老人家向我吐苦水。说她的孙子，（也就是我的学生的哥哥，当然也是我的学生，只是小六会考刚过了，所以我不用再给他上课。）对他们两老很不礼貌，骂他们，赶他们回去印尼，还向他们扔电视遥控器。我有亲眼目睹他对两老的态度，也教训过他，但是这种已经根深蒂固的不良价值观，没办法纠正过来。因为这个孩子的母亲，也就是我的其中一个老板，已经把孩子宠坏。他不做我的功课时，这位母亲也拿孩子没辙。这位母亲对我的态度还不错，但是对两老的态度却不好。可能觉得他们过来跟儿子住，干扰了他们夫妻的生活。这个我就不清楚了。但是那位奶奶说着说着就眼眶红了。她说如果不是丈夫病了，要到新加坡治疗，他们才不过来受气。孙子嫌他们是累赘，害他不能出国旅行，又说他们花家里的钱，想害他们破产。还说他们想跳楼想破产是他们的事，不要害他。如果我有这样的孩子，我会把他打到在地上爬。我绝对不允许我的孩子对家中长辈无礼。上一次家婆说大女儿骂她，我回家后就狠狠地鞭了她。老二也一起鞭，因为她也惹老人家生气。我可是真的很用力鞭，经过那一次之后，她们再也不敢对家婆不礼貌。孩子如果小的时候不教，长大后就会变成像我这个学生一样，要教也教不来了。不能因为爱孩子就放纵他任意妄为。我觉得这位母亲真的没有尽责，对老人家这种恶劣的态度，她以后也一定会有像她这种恶劣的媳妇。她怎么就忘了自己有两个儿子。将来就换她被媳妇折磨了。儿子照顾母亲是天经地义的事，儿子带母亲看电影，她也不高兴，还给老人家脸色看。如果我老公要带家翁家婆出去，我是高兴都来不及。本来就应该儿子带父母出去走走。但是我老公对这种事情一点都不上心。我只能有时候出门回来买点好吃的给家中长辈吃。回北部就买给家翁和家婆，回西部就买给自己的母亲，当然还有老爸和老哥。当然我还没有到能够很自然和家婆出去的那种关系，毕竟不是自己的母亲。所以我常常叫老公多花时间和他们说话。那位奶奶说着自己媳妇的不是，说着媳妇每天给他们两老脸色看，不和他们说话，还和孙子说他们的坏话，害孙子很讨厌他们等等。她说自己的小儿子以前来新加坡念书时，这个媳妇还叫他去洗厕所。这个儿子看见自己的大嫂这个样子都不敢结婚，怕娶到一个不好的太太，让老人家受罪。但是这个奶奶的大儿子，也就是我学生的老爸是不错的。不是溺爱孩子的那种，孩子也挺怕他。只是因为工作关系，常不在家。非常忙碌。老人家也没有把孙子和媳妇对他们的态度说给儿子听，因为不想儿子为了这事情和老婆吵架。之前有一次儿子看见太太准备早餐，就只准备了他们自己的，没有准备两个老人家的，很不高兴。质问太太，两个人为此吵架。从此以后，老人家就对儿子说不要管他们两老是否有东西吃，他们要吃什么会自己买，不要再为了这种事和老婆吵架。其实老人家真的也是有苦难言，不能对儿子说，不想儿子为难。我只能跟她说，自己的儿子好就行了，媳妇好不好，不是我们能控制的。就像女婿一样，好的女婿就变成半个儿子。但是一切还得随缘，强求不来。看见那位奶奶说得哽咽，我好想给她一个拥抱，但是怕那位母亲带孩子回来看见了，可能又会生事端。所以只能用言语安慰她。像她说的，人在做，天在看。心肠不好的，将来必有恶报。我真的还蛮不爽的。还蛮想不帮这位母亲的小儿子补课。但是这个小儿子其实还有得救，因为明年才要上小一。如果我现在对他进行强化品德方面的教育，他应该不会变成他哥哥那种鬼样子吧？他应该会对两位老人家比较好吧？这样老家人也会很欣慰。要找一些有意思又不说教的教材才行。 其实如果娶一个不好的媳妇，还不如让儿子一辈子不结婚更好。何必找罪受。所以我也常跟老妈说，老哥到现在还没交女朋友，但是真的急不来。生活中很多坏媳妇的例子，大家有目共睹，难道为了让老哥结婚，就将就，就随便找个外国新娘之类的吗？我可不同意，我老哥要找，一定要是好的，也一定要对老爸老妈好。婚姻大事绝对要慎重起见。

容易

学生说今天的会考试卷还蛮容易的。 太好了。希望这两个学生都能考得好。 我的任务算是暂时完成。现在只要把重点放在其他学生身上就行了。 小六的学生可以放长假了。 我还有一个「回收」的中四生。 至少也得让她拿个B才行。

喜欢这首新歌

严爵<暂时的男朋友>。 好听。

三国

今天买了一套新的三国光碟。 我相信市面上所有的三国版本我应该都有了。 我太习惯看那套卡通版的三国了，所以这一套最新的真人版的三国我还真的是不知道它的存在。 感觉很有现代感。但是后面注明nc16,不知道适合学生看吗？ 其实我是想借给学生看才买的。 假期快到了，可以让学生在假期里看看有意思的光碟。 可以放松，也可增进知识。 不知道为什么，在这么多名著里头，我对三国最有感觉。 女生应该会喜欢红楼梦吧？但是我却不喜欢。 就是喜欢三国，也喜欢这种战略性质的电脑游戏。 也许这就是为什么我养不出像公主一样的女儿。

Planning holidays

Promised the monsters will bring them to disneyland this year, before leng go pri one. So have to be these few months. Maybe this month end. But i have yet book the package yet. But we go holiday always very last min. Just cannot fix date too far away. So normally is book and travel within two weeks time. Cannot see things beyond two weeks. This time will go with my parents, brother, hubby and 3 monsters. So cannot go too far and no money to go so far also. Will go hongkong disneyland, but with tour group as got kids and old folks. Go with tour group easier to manage.hopefully there is a cheap and good package.

公主

不知道别人是怎么把女儿养成公主的。很多我认识的人，他们的女儿都是一种典型的公主相。 就是眼睛大大，头发长长，打扮得像个洋娃娃。 穿着美美的公主裙。说话也娇声细语，真的就是个公主。 可是自己的女儿怎么养都是村姑。 就算穿着公主裙，也不像公主。 说话大声，行为粗鲁，尤其是老二，更像男孩。 惹她生气，就是一个打人的动作。最近又进化成挥拳的动作。 同样是养女儿，怎么就养成了村姑。 我像村姑吗？