today's tasks

I have just finished making a dress for my big girl. Dun look very nice but 1st attempt I think its consider ok. The yellow color side is actually the front. I find the fabric very transparent, so i use another cloth to act as the 2nd layer inside. But seems that the effect is the 2nd cloth become nicer than the 1st cloth..haha...anyway i think the dress can be dress 2 ways. Inside and outside both can wear. Then can have 2 different look also....

I am going to causeway point later to buy a good baby carrier so that I can carry my small girl with lesser backache. Though I already have a good one, but heard that this brand is even better. So I am buying. should be a worthwhile investment. I want to start using it tomolo, so that she can get use to it and when we go tour yr end, she will like it.

The last task for today will be to wash the fans. I have about 4 fans to wash. Then I will fetch my big girl from childcare and go over to my in law house for dinner.

And my last last task for tonite will be to finalize my exam papers and send to my HOD.

Tomorrow I will be going over to Jurong side to play with my small girl.

the wonders of sewing machine

Last time I use to sew using my mum's old manual type of sewing machine. The pattern and style of the sewing is the normal usual type like this "-------". But now with electronic sewing machine, alot of pattern can be created. And they look very nice. I used it on pillow cases and on the edges of fabric. They look good.

the "curtains" for my door

my 1st day of NPL

Yesterday was my 1st day of no pay leave. what did I do?

I actually wanted to do more things. But I ended up not able to do so. I only manage to do the following.

1.sweep floor
2.mop floor
3.buy grocery
4.wash my girl's ABC mat
5.make "curtain" for door [ my girl will have bad cough if on aircon with closed door, but if dun on aircon, she will be hot and sweat and bitten by bed bugs. We used to open the door and let the aircon goes out, but kind of waste aircon, so use this "curtain" thing to act as door]

rainbow

small girl 1st bday

happy Birthday

Celebrated my small girl birthday last saturday. The actual bday date is 1st April.
She now can hold on to things to walk.

cooking fried hokkien mee

I tried to fry hokkien mee last thursday. bought some prawns,mushrooms, bean sprouts, meat, eggs etc. This is the result. So far out of the "many" dishes I cook, this is one of the most edible....hahaha... I will slowly improve, I think I lack the opportunity to cook. And I am always stress that food are not well cooked, so in the end I overcook most of my dishes.

This week I will try to make some desserts. And maybe to cook frog porriage.

pictures in school

packing in school

went back to pack my things last saturday. can't believe I have accumulated so much things just in 3 years. My one of my room in my house is almost filled up with all the things...I have to find one day or a few days to tidy the room, no space for walking.

Left with the SA1 papers to be finalize as my HOD still have not finish vetting. So I have to work during my NPL also. But its a promise I made to the P. So I will finish this last bit. But anything more than that, I will not entertain. She actually got the cheek to ask me if I can help with the CA2 papers, and that will be in August....I have to "eat myself" during my NPL, so I take no money and still do work? I am still quite sound. If i am not, maybe I will do for her..haha...

My girl in my school, I busy packing and she busy posing and taking pictures...

my small girl

cuppage

This place brings back alot of memories. During my NIE days, the few of us went to this place quite often to sing. The sunlight city KTV, dunno whether is it still there? Now the few of us hardly meet. Have not seen some for many years, some as long as 3 years.Sometimes I wonder how are they now? Are they living the life they always wanted?

favourite balloons!

my elder girl loves balloons! She is a collector of ballons.I took her to the Natas fair and she collect 2 balloons.She went up to the "I love children" bus to play also.

waiting and singing

while waiting for wedding dinner to start, my girl was singing and dancing outside the toilet area, she imagine it to be a stage for her to perform.

attend wedding dinner of my hubby's cousin-7th march

outing together

went out together for dinner on 8 march. eat frog porriage in geylang.

funny journal

one of my student's jounal entry. Just for a laugh. But it shows the standard of this class of students. the tail end of the batch. Not sure their english language, but chinese cannot make it.

school on saturday

brought my girl to school yesterday becoz I want to do a bit of packing of my stuffs.

eye power

photos-childcare centre visit to eye centre

Accompanied my girl for the excursion to the eye centre last month.

counting down

This friday will be the last day of my teaching for this year. Taking a long break. quite busy for the past weeks as I was clearing my marking, preparing everything nice nice for the teacher taking over.

my cough is still lingering around, not completely cured yet. Same for my blocked nose. But my voice is almost back to normal. Took me about 2 months to be near to recovery state.

My small girl is going to be 1 yr old soon.....but she is still quite cranky.
She is progressing well, able to stand and try to walk a few steps with support. She got about 6 teeth.

I will have more time to update soon.

updates

my voice is still like a frog. But I have hop to another doctor. Its the 6th times I have seen western doctor on this cough+flu+loss of voice. Until now still not recovered.

My big girl childcare centre got some kind of stomach flu virus and on and off she will puke. only 1 time she got diarrhoa. There was one nite she puke 3 times. Just changing the bedsheet and washing them enough work for the nite. brought her to see doctor on wednesday nite. She is recovering. But her appetite is so bad that she eat only a few mouth of food and dun wan anymore. I hope she will get better fast fast. I really dun wan to take more leave, need to complete alot of things b4 I take my no pay leave. Have alot of things to do as I can't leave it to a relief teacher to do.sighz........

what wrong with typical woman?

Today I am backstab by another head from another dept which i had to work with.becoz of some no value added work, I felt that I should not do for the sake of doing. for the past years in civil service, I have been doing some no meaning things which pple from "up there" ask me to do. Normally I will juz do quietly, will not kick up a big fuss. But now I am going to take no pay leave, I felt that I should not remain quiet and maybe I should say out the problem. I respect her so I send email to her only, didn;t cc to others. I regret that. I should have CC to P, VP. She went to my head and backstab me...think her EQ also not high man....i didn't "broadcast" to pple, and she go and "broadcast". I think typical women are really petty. Thats why I get along better with guys. I can say whatever I want and I dun have to think whether they will be offended over small small things. I think my school middle management got alot of problems, esp women in middle management. Anything, any problem you pointed out, they will take it personally like you are challenging their authority.

My head is also out to pick on me. Lesson observation is done in july or august. But she sent email and say want me to arrange a lesson observation for her. I am already so sick with a frog voice and she want to have lesson observation. Fine with that. I email back and say she can come anyday, anytime, any class, any lesson. I will not specially prepared a lesson for her to see "fake" teaching. She can just drop by as and when she is free to see my "real" teaching. I think this is more meaningful, but I guess her intention is not to really sincerely come for lesson observation. But I dun care. I am doing my work, she like it or not, its up to her. Why should I bother. My health is in a terrible state. And I am disillusion with civil service. Why can pple just trust pple, must everything really be in black and white?

Please lah, if I really want to challenge anyone's authority, I would have climb up the ladder and be coordinator or subject head or whatever. I dun want to take up any of these roles. That is why I keep cutting my pay, but still I keep getting work. Why must I cut my pay and do extra work. not logical right? It is not pple who are capable should do more work. work and pay should be in porportion.

too bad my P is not in school these 2 days.I will see him again on Thursday when I am back in school. The only thing that makes me feels bad to leave is my classes, my students and my P. Maybe becoz my P is a guy not a woman, thats why I gets along well with him. Typical woman are really petty and difficult to get along with.

I think this year I got alot of "xiao3 ren2" in my life. I need to go see my regular fengshui master again. My hubby also got quite alot of "xiao ren", and worse than mine, his xiao ren is a petty man...haha....a man with the personality of a typical woman....sounds bad....

more photos

photos

During the 1st day of CNY. My hubby family went to Sentosa for a one nite stay at the siloso beach resort. Brought my 2 girls there, luckily my small girl was cooperative that nite, manage to sleep a bit on the bed.
post some photos.

headache

I have this headache problem after I delivered my 1st kid. the frequency of headache is like once a week. sometimes one side of my temple, sometimes both sides. sometimes mild, sometimes serious. But if I eat panadol, the headache problem can be solved. It has been 2 years I live with this kind of headache and I dun know whats the cause also. Soemtimes when I travel from place to place, from aircon place to non aircon place etc, I get this kind of headache as well. So really dun know whats the cause.

Today I finished marking my sec 3 CA papers at home. Later I am going to have a nap, then will fetch my girl from childcare. And will cook some porriage for her and for myself to eat. Hopefully after this weekend I will get my voice back and also my cough will recover.

tonite I will give the CNY dinner a miss. Too bad, really not fated to go.

MC

I will be on MC tomorrow. Still very sick. Today I tried to teach with my usual hoarse voice that have not recovered. But I got a very bad headache which makes me very giddy and pukish. I have to sit down if not I felt like fainting. luckily I only have 4 periods today and 1 class is doing a test. Already thankful that I do not have to run to toilet to puke.

Had already prepared work for all my classes tomorrow. This time round the low EQ woman has got nothing to pick on me.

I actually seen a chinese doc yest. But today I went to see western doc again, so now I dun know which medicine I should take....continue with chinese med or take western medicine? another round of anti biotics...the 3rd round already...maybe I should not take?

This few weeks of bad sickness has made me realise that there is really nothing more important than health. Work is work, end of the day, sometimes even when you have done your work responsibly, people can still be not satisfied. Even if you work until you are left with one last breathe or you sold your life to work, eventually noone may be grateful to you for what you have contributed.

I need to be real sick to understand alot of things. please dun be a workaholic and put your own health at stake.

my pathetic voice

This morning I have about 60% of my voice. But after one day of teaching, I am left with about 40%. At this rate, I have problem getting back my usual voice. Hopefully, Will be better tomolo.

This friday, will be the school CNY dinner for staff. I didn't go for the teachers' day dinner last yr. I thought this one will be the last event I attend for school, maybe I should go. And maybe bring my big girl along. Take it as a good gathering with my colleuges in school. I most probably will not go back to teach.

Kind of miss my sec 4E3 students. They are so fun loving students. And my favourite class for this year.

what I will be busying with

I just finished marking my 3 classes of compositions and letter writings. And next week, test papers will be coming in. So I will be marking test paper and computing marks for CA1 for next 2 weeks. Then I will go through another round of composition marking. After that, I will set Mid yr paper for my P. Not for my HOD. I do it for my P. He is a nice man, so I thought even though I am leaving in March. I should help by setting the mid yr paper.

My hubby always say I complain and complain and end up will still do things for pple. I guess that is my soft spot. If a person is gd to me 100%, I felt that I should treat the person 200% better. But if the person is bad to me 100%, I will return 200% worse to him/her.....hmm....seems like I also quite petty hor?

So after my leave starts, what will I be doing? Probably will take up driving lessons first. Even though I know I got no sense of direction, but mastering a new skill maybe will be useful to be in the future. Then probably will do some tidying of house and bringing my kids out to play on weekdays where its not so crowded in alot of places.Then I will think of some other ways to get some income for myself..haha..probably teach tuition. And then plan for a good year end holiday with my whole family. Wanted to go tour in a big group as it will be more fun.

my small girl at 10 months

My small girl at 10 months can now call a bit of names. She can call mama, baba, yeye. But the first name she called is jiejie. She seems to like her sister alot. She can say "mum mum" when wan to eat and "nei nei" when wan to drink milk. She can say "gai gai" when she wans to go out. And she can wave bye bye and point to her stomach when she eat full.

Now she is at the stage where she wants to hold on to things and stand up.She is more daring than her elder sister as she is not afriad of falling. Her temper is bad. my big girl is scare of meimei. She will "complained" to us that meimei is coming and meimei destroy her things. She will say to herself "meimei lai le, bu yao pa"...hahaha...seems like she will be bullied by my small girl.

NPL

I have made the decision already. By pass my HOD and talk to Principal. He is a reasonable superior and I really enjoy working under him. But the new HOD really sucks.......haha....anyway my no pay leave will starts from 23/3/2009. Will take until year end. Then I will decide what I want. Whether to go back teach or to change school or to continue take no pay leave. Too early to decide now.

I am left with 30% of my pathetic voice. And was on MC on Thursday. And the no EQ & IQ head just implement a "buddy system" on Thursday morning itself, expected me to phone my "buddy" to inform of assignments to be given to students. Hey! I am on MC on that day and I did not attend her bloody meeting so how I am going to know who's my "buddy"? And Its a long weekend after CNY. Wednesday was my freeday, so I wasn't in school for one week. If I know I will be so sick until after 1 plus week also cannot recover, I must be God....haha...And the bloody system implement on the same day, activate in that same second??..haha...one of the vein in her brain must have gone hay wired.

And I heard on friday when I went to school that someone bad mouth me. Say I "irresponsible".....what a joke man. I have alot of close friends in school who came to tell me abt it. They were so shocked also. I was actually also on MC that day. But I decide to go to school to teach with my pathetic 20% frog voice. And I felt so upset that morning after I heard the brainless woman bad talk behind my back. But that afternoon, I suddenly felt like laughing. Its the best joke of the day, and I actually forgot to tell the P about it durig our conversation. I should have tolf him.

A newbie in school who dun even know what kind of person I am, dare to use that word on me. Where on earth got a part time teacher work until school close everyday and mark until 12 midnite and use free day for marking? And I am "irresponsible"...I find it so amusing man. Its a word that I would never ever imagine it to be use on me.

The 2 things that I am always so proud of myself is Integiry and responsibility. Ever since my primary school teacher wrote that in my report book, I made sure I live up to the 2 words. Its really a joke of the day. And she said to to my good friends in schools..haha..........who find her a horrible woman.

my ba zi and her ba zi must have clashed. I am actually on good term with almost all my colleuges in school. But she is one of those that really irks me. Since she like things so superficious, she should do it herself. I am not interested in doing thnigs that look good but have no value. Working under a petty woman is bad. I guess I am those kind more "hao2 shuang3" and I canot stand petty woman as superior.

Too bad, its just a senario of a mismatch. I am not the right GENERAL for the right KING.

a thought

I had this thought. I would like to take a break from teaching in school. I felt so tired and sick. And I'm real sick. I am not getting what I need out of the part time scheme, which makes me felt so "exploited" by pple. I am still leaving at school at 6pm and bringing back all the tonnes of compositions and works to marks. I din get to use the free day constructively, but used it for my marking. So by getting less pay, I am not justified for it.

I seriously think that I need to leave. Maybe to cool down for a while. Considering taking no pay leave first. I need a break. But currently too sick to even discuss with P anything. And also because I am losing my voice again. The last time I totally lost my voice was in 2005. Now my voice problem is here, because I cough too much. And maybe think too much also.

a late goodbye

I am so shocked when I browse thro some of the blogs that I have been missing for quite a while. I din even know she left, she was such a quiet and gentle girl in class. The year I taught the class 2005. That was the year I left JWSS. I love the class, there are so many red cross little angels in the class. Alvina was so quiet in class, she was responsible and committed in red cross tasks. Even though I only taught her for that year, she and the rest of the red cross girls are always on my mind. I know she had some health problem, but she look alright and she carried out her duties like the rest of the girls, it did not come to my mind she would have left us so early. She was so close to the release of O level results. My heart ache when I recall her name...Alvina is the name she was called in red cross. But in chinese class, she was called Tan Wan Ling.

I couldn't sleep last nite, my mind was full of the unexpected news and I am so sorry that I did not send my goodbye to her. I was late.......late by almost 2 weeks. I don't know how her good friends are going to cope with the loss. I read the blogs of so many of them and all the photos brings back alot of memories. My images of them were still stagnant at sec 1. But they have all outgrown the childishness and become pretty ladies.

Why did such a nice girl left so early....there's still so much for her to see, there are still so many dreams to pursue........I find it very hard to accept.
I hope she will be a happy angel in heaven.........a late goodbye to Alvina...

Take care of yourselves........Wan Jing, Veronica, stephanie and valerie......I am sure your good friend wants everyone of you to be happy. And also to help her to live life to fullest and to pursue all the dreams that she is unable to do so.Take Care!

sick again

I have been falling sick so often nowadays. My bad bad cough is back again...sighz....

my workload for the year

Now I am taking the part time teaching scheme with a 2/3 workload. Means I'm getting a pay cut of 1/3, so doing 1/3 less work. I do not have form class and CCA. And I have 1 free day which I do not have to go to school, and its a wednesday. I have check out the calender. There are no public holidays on a wednesday, thus its a very good choice. Initially, I wanted to have the free day on Monday, but after looking at the calender, I decide not to. There are quite a number of public holidays on Mondays and Fridays for 2009.

I will still be doing dept admin work as I will still be in the IT committe and doing all the data stuffs, like keying in marks, preparing result analysis etc. Will still need to help out in dept events, but not the main in charge.

I have 4 classes. 2E, 3E, 4E and 2T

My 1st day of sch, I still ended up leaving school at 6.30pm...sigh...I dun want to be the most "ill-fated" teacher on part time. I have to leave early........I must leave early, so that I felt justified for my pay cut...haha

The 1st post for year 2009

School starts tomolo and I will be back to work.

I dun like the new head in the dept, as she seems unable to judge who is the "bad" person and who are the "good" people in the department. She seems to be taking the wrong sides and I am quite disappointed about it. Just dun feel good. The good people always get bullied. And this very good guy in the dept gets unfairly treated, which makes my blood boils. Why is it that we are always clearing shit and mess for others? They create the mess then they should clear it themselves. And this woman who got no team spirit just want people to help her when she need help, so where is she and what have she done when we need to do things as a team? One rotten egg really spoilt the whole basket of eggs. And I dislike people who got no team spirit.

Not a good way to start the year with.
I should say something good.
hmm...........I hope everyone on my "good friends" list will have a good year, good health, good luck.:)

Happy New Year!

2009 is coming! Happy New Year to all!

gathering photos

met my old friends recently. A few of them cannot turn up, but it is good to see the rest. Went to the Holland Village 211 roof terrace cafe.
exchange some updates and finally my best friend has decided to settle down next year end. Another friend will be getting married next year also. Quite alot of good news. Heard some not so good news also, but I guess this kind of thing is quite common nowadays. It is really not easy for a marriage to work out well.

Post some pictures of my good friends.

Finally.....a gathering

Finally...will be having a gathering with friends this friday night.I have not seen my group of close friends for like 2 years??? Have not been to a gathering for that long. But I know we have build up a strong foundation since sec/Jc times and even if we had not met for a few years, the bond will still be that strong. Maybe that is the difference between man and woman. My hubby met his friends once a week for supper/dinner. Almost every week he will have something on. But for me, I meet my friends like once a year?? or twice a year??

Once a woman is married, the focus will shift to kids and family. If my kids are sick, or if I am not well. Even if there is a once in a 100 years special event, I will not go also. The 1st place in my heart will always be my kids. And I know I have to be well, then I can take good care of them. I guess for me to really do what I want to do without having to "think", will be when my kids are big enough to look after themselves. Then I can have my own way of doing things, for the next 20 years, I will put my kids the top piority 1st.

the skill of using one chopstick

My big girl trying to eat la mian by using one chopstick instead of one pair of chopsticks. I think she find it easier to eat by using one chopstick.

The miracle weed or coincidence?

My small girl has been very cranky since the 1st month. And we had a hard time, esp when she wants to sleep. She will cry for quite a long time b4 settled down to sleep. Very tiring esp for my mum who is taking care of her almost everyday.have been enduring for abt 8 months, and one day my mum suddenly thought of a certain kind of weed.( belief passed down from long time ago, maybe from some old folks)
Last time when my mum babysit my cranky and itchy fingers cousin, she also use the weed to "deal" with him.....

My father went dun know some ulu place to pluck the weeds. Its actually not too uncommon, it grows on the fences and certain places where they can have support, as they are those crawling kind of weeds. Last time my father used to pluck near the Jurong East/west canel, but now the place has got limited weeds.

My mum boiled the weeds, and used the water to bathe my small girl. Put some fresh weeds in her pillow and in the room.

Actually the weed has got a very strong smell which smells like "chicken shit", in hokkien the weed is called " kuei sai tin" means "chicken shit weed".

I try to find the weed somewhere over the past weekend, and to confirm my findings, I just need to smell the leaves of the weed and if it smells like chicken shit, then I got the right one....haha....can't believe I'm doing this kind of thing.

There was once my hubby ask me if my big girl has poo poo, like got shit smell. And I smell my girl, theres no shit smell, then I realised the "power" of the "chcken shit weed" which I stuff inside my big girl's pillow..haha... The whole room got a funni smell. But it really doesn't smell that bad.

whether its the power of the "chicken shit weed" or its just coincidence, I dun care so much. The fact is, my small girl in the same week where the weed is used, has stopped being cranky b4 sleep time and can really sleep better.

personally, I felt that if its the power of the weed, then there should be some scientific reason behind the weed. Maybe the smell from the weed is soothing? has some calming effect? just like some plants like lavender, they have a stress reliefing effect, so I supposed the weed also work in the same way? Or can it be just coincidence? hmm..........

Now my father over the weekend will go and find the weed and pluck like supply for 2 weeks. Sometimes I happened to see the weed, I will also pluck some back. Just plucking the weeds make me feels like I'm back to my kampong days....but then I'm now so paraniod about insects/spiders on the weed and I know I'm not the same old kampong girl already. And if I dun say, I dun think anyone whould have guessed I once lived in kampong.

my small girl at 8 months plus

my small girl at 8 months plus has 2 teeth and can sit up and crawl also. very cheeky, now always try to find things to open esp. drawers, she will crawl over and pull. She seldom smile. Always stare at people. Look very fierce. I have spent some good time with her for the past 2 weeks. Took her to Jurong Point for a few times. She enjoy going out to "gai gai", once mentioned the word "gai gai", she will start to wave her hands like saying bye bye.

小女人和大女人

每一个女人都有“大女人”和“小女人”的时候。
我觉得在工作方面，自己是个大女人。因为受不了工作效率太差的人，因为觉得自己做得到别人也应该做得到。在工作方面，我是不拘小节的。给人的感觉应该是比较豪爽的类型。

但是在家庭方面，在面对家庭琐事的时候，自己又像个小女人。有很多事情我会放在心上，像个典型的小女人，在夜深人静时，在失眠的时候，开始斤斤计较过去的事情。

我觉得只有自己的母亲了解自己的女儿。做了母亲以后，我才开始真正懂得疼惜母亲。我的母亲那么操劳，可以安享晚年却帮我照顾女儿。一天24小时，尤其现在，我大女儿生病的时候，她帮我带小女儿，整整2个星期没有放一天假。我好心疼母亲。我的母亲很能吃苦，可是我不希望她那么辛苦。她不会因为辛苦就动不动说“我没办法，你自己照顾”。她不会为了让自己轻松，而拒绝帮忙。

我也不希望那么快就让大女儿到托儿所去。我也想让她完全康复后再回去，但是这可能还要等一两个星期。我也有工作，我不是只有一个女儿，我也要让自己的母亲休息以下，我也要陪陪小女儿。大女儿不去托儿所，谁来照顾？是你吗？很多事情光用嘴巴说很容易，我也知道什么对孩子最好，但是做得到吗？我最不喜欢光说不会做得人。

悼念一朵在枪林弹雨中凋零的花

她是一朵那么娇艳的花，不该在枪林弹雨中凋零。
她的勇敢和镇定，所能承受的压力已经超出一般人所能承受。
我连想象当时可能发生的事情都会觉得恐惧。

会考口试曾经出过这样的题目：你认为是恐怖主义可怕还是沙斯可怕？
是恐怖主义吧？
最起码，面对沙斯的时候，亲人在身边，所有的牵挂，放得下和放不下的都在身边。

在生命的最后一刻，没有亲人的陪伴，那么无助，万分恐惧。在全然陌生的环境，毫无心理准备，不知为什么的情况下，就这样牺牲了。多么宝贵的生命却这样无辜地被夺去。

花样的年华，灿烂的生命，在一朵花绽放得最艳丽的时候，却不知为什么凋谢了。
这么壮烈的凋零，让人心疼。
留给我们的是震撼和遗憾。

my home computer kena virus

My home computer kena virus. Wanted to type words in chinese but cannot. And Cannot access my blog also. And anti virus was destroyed by the virus. Seems like a strong one. Now in school doing some work and my girl is beside me. She has not been attending childcare since last monday. Now still recovering. No more fever but cough still there, with phelgm. Need to go for follow up check with PD this coming Thursday. I will let her go childcare centre tomolo, so that I can bring my small girl for injection. Then Thursday I will go Jurong to see PD and friday let her go childcare one more day.

Really hope she can faster get completely well.

helpless

I dun know whats happening to my girl....Her fever came back and the highest hit 39 this evening. I am just back from my PD clinic at Jurong. Took a cab down from Yishun after I phone my Pd regarding the fever. Was told to go down immediately. The whole day today, my girl was telling me she want to sleep. from morning to evening, she seems very tired. Her cough not better. and fever is back.

Felt like crying. I'm so stressed. Whats happening to her? The Pd say if tomolo morning still fever, have to go hospital to do x ray. He is still worried that its fei4 yan2. I will still have to visit the doctor tomolo afternoon. The blood test result will be out.

My girl seems to be very weak. I felt like a useless mother......I am so worried. worried about the big one, and worried about the small one who is so cranky and giving my mum such a hard time to take care. Worried about my hubby who is also sick. worried about my mum who seems to overwork taking care of my small girl and she seems to be falling sick too. Worried about myself, if I fall sick, who is going to look after my 2 kids..... I'm so stressed....

I cannot fall sick.....

doctor visit

my elder girl is still sick. she had high fever 41degree on sunday.was thinking whether to go to hospital sunday nite, then decide to phone my usual PD. Monitor her for 1 nite, the next day, took her to see the PD. Took a cab down to Jurong. She had serious bateria infection. took a blood test as the Pd was scare that her lungs may be infected. I regret not seeing gd doctors but took her to normal GP for so many times, until now she has been coughing more than 1 month. Now end up with more agony and more money spent. The Pd phone in the nite regarding the blood test report and luckily her lungs are ok. Was asked to go for follow up check tuesday. And for these 2 visits, cost me about $500 in total. Have to go for follow up check again this Saturday.

The medical bill for myself and kids for this month come up to $1000. My hubby is also sick. fever. But he still had to go to work as he need to travel to Jakarta this morning. But will be back tonite.

I am still not compeltely well. Still cough at nite. But well enough to take care of my girl. Have not fetch my small girl back for 2 weeks as I did not want the virus to spread to her, without the virus, she is already cranky enough.